My Ramblings

AH!!!I'm SUFFERING here...Damn it!!Ale2 like da memories dulu2 nye came up 2me all at once...ARGH!!Hate it...All da memories i had wid my exs...Haiz!!cos waz listening 2 da sngs datz related 2 em..."Dalam hati ini ada namamu...nama seorang insan yg aku rindu...dalam diri ini ada sayang mu...sayang nya diri mu tidak mengerti...dalam senyum ini ada tangisan...tangisan seorang insan terluka"..haiz...dat waz a few lines of da sng dat nw remain s memories...haiz...wad a life...d sng really sad mann n noeing i'm so emotionally sensitive,u guys wud noe wad i've shed listening 2 da sng...HAIZ!!!dat waz his sng...da sng dat i gt 2 noe wen we were together...aku still ingat sey...da sng he mentioned 2 me waz Mengusung Rindu..d 1st sng ever he mention 2 me tym kite aru alek from tampines mall n pat bdk int arh..tym 2 he anta me alek 2 bdk int...he ckp da sng nice sng but gt sad oso la cos of da lyrics...haiz...sih ingat sey...i mrajok wid ma mom dat tym cos of smth...den gt noone 2 accompany me go lepak n stuffs...padahal da mlm tau...haha!but i dun gv a damn..main kuar rumah jer...pasal la...sms him n he accompanied me window shopping pat tamp mall...d best part waz dat wen kite jumpa...he kata he pat ice lemon tee but wen i gt der he waznt der...he waz opposite laughing away...pe sey...he waz der all alng n i waz like budak bdh jenguk2 dlm tu kedai ingat dia pat dlm...lupe2 nye he waz opposite watching my steps n all...pe je...paisey la u...haiz but dat remain s memories...dey wun cum bck...haiz....

Nw wad?my sis tak sms2 dari pagi tadi...sms her saying good morning but dint get a reply...but instead sum otha guy smsed me...haiz...she haiz...dint even reply my sms-es till nw...i'm dead worried bout her...smlm da lah kite gaduh cos of my tym sleep n nw she tak reply2...wer cud she haf gone smpkan tak reply2 my sms-es??wer u go?wer?y d silence my dear??y??u avoiding me or wad??do i deserve all dix??all d silence??haiz...nvm la if she wants 2 keep quiet...up 2 her...confirm she wun eat..wun eat her medicine...wun even tink of rest...wud jz smoke,smoke n smoke...datz all she do...i noe she's troubled...haiz..but i'm still worried 4 her...erm.. n s 4 da guy dat sms-ed me...u arent suitable 4me la...so jz gv up...i dun gv a damn mann...jz dun want 2 go 2 d extent dat i wud get irritated cos of u la...stop d compliments n stuffs...u jz wun get it do u??haiz...here i'm troubled n u keep insisting me 2 call u....pe sey...org tanak tu tanak la....haiz...

Asilah jz sms-ed me n ckp gaji da ader pat account kitorang...cos she went 2 top up her card tadik...so like she tell me dat our gaji waz oreadi der n i waz shocked arh...dua hari dlm 25 bucks...orite la...beginners pe..takpe la...at least ader duit...

Hmm...besok ader sec one orientation...hah!u all noe i prefect rite?2 dox hu dun,yah...i'm a prefect....a 'loyal' one indeed...nak kena smp skola kol 7 am bsok..damn it!pagi sak...cam pegi skola peh tym sey...siang lagi arh...but takpe la...m excited 2,2 meet d sec 1 batch 4 nxt yr...mcm mane la drg eh...kewl ker tak or dey jz hang loose?haha!hang loose..yah....like dox step2 peh budak...dox me n my frens panggil SHITKIDS...haha!budak taik beb...m looking forward 4 tml...ma mom tak bagik pegi cos of ma hand bt mom i'm looking forward 2 meet d small ones...dun halang me pls...mom waz jz worried bout my hand datz all..but she let me go of course la..hehe!tanx mom..u're da best...

hmm...goin bck 2 skool tml...n to tink of it like da start skola alek sey...haiz...peh cepat masa bejln kan...da nak masok 2004...a few more daes 2 count down mann...but realli ar...tinking bout skool opening...makes me stress sey....homewerk like wad asilah sae,peh blambak...byk sey...da skool tot we so free kape...i wud be buzy wid hmwk dix few daes of course...byk gler nye...mesti all ma frens nga buat...hehe!last mint wer again...haiz...noe wad?der wud be exams rite wen d skool opens....argh!skola budget...ader exam start skola...aru bukak je da nak stress kan org...pe jer....leks arh...i noe la next yr i taking 'o's but dun let all of us stress out too much la...nanti lagi susah tau...skola,skola....

always and forever lovin' you;
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