My Ramblings

Haiz...chill,chill n chill...datz all he can sae yah....n of course it goes wid d haha...datz all...been observing u dix daes...it's jz nt u...haiz...but wad can i do??i'm asking 4 it so i accept it la...tho haiz...nvm...let da hart do all dat...m troubled wid tings...tanx nadiah 4 trying 2 help..but i'm jz too stubborn 2 listen...tok on d fon wid syafiq tadik from 1 till 2 plus...erm...ppl,nt d syafiq s in 'kalakatu' tau..(datz 4 dox hu noe sape he is la)..dix syafiq is my primary skool fren arh...we tok2 sal kite peh kwn sume n tok bout skool...niwae,skool sux..haha!he ask comments on sume org n he sae i chill...haiz..evrywer i go i hear d werd chill...pe nie...da ketagih werd chill kape??he jz describe me s a gerl hu's always chill...lyk relek je arh...haha!he blom kenal lagi hu d real me...dox hu da kenal tu da kenal tul2 la kan..he blom...yah syafiq,i'm da type dat keeps evryting 2 maself...tings dat ppl realli wana noe...i hide d sadness in me..datz 1 ting ppl hate bout me..i dun usualli let out tings so ezly..datz y wen kite sume kuar krg wun noe whether aku sedih ke tak...nomatter wad i'll put up a smile in front of u all....datz 4 sure...nw u noe a bit bout me..hehe!

hmm...i jz kant get 2 sleep..ma minds troubled wid tings nw...damn sad mann...but wad d heck..org sume tak kisah...all i can sae is dat i'm suffering so much nw...TAPI...m expecting so lah...tho i realli kant take it readi...haiz...been sad..sad n sad dix few daes...he dint noe wads in real me..he dint noe dat....i duno if he noes...but noone noes..i can guarentee dat noone noes wads realli inside me cos i simply keep 2 maself...he doesnt noe if i'm sad or wad wid my decision...let's jz sae noone ever did noe wads in me dix daes...like whether i'm hapi or nt...i jz smile n lead my life normally...sacrifice smth very big 2 me jz 4 sum1...u neednt noe hu's dat sum1 la...jz sum1 special 2 me...n i jz kant bare c-ing dat sum1 hurt or sad...so,i've decided on my decision...power sey my decision...all i can sae is dat HE up der noes wad lies beneath me...d real me...i kant sae all my feelings out..i jz kant...so,i shall jz keep quiet..insyallah i'll lead a hapi life wid my decision...tho it sux...but nvm la...4 sum1's sake i'm prepared 2 do aniting 4 da person..even if 2 sacrifice my own lifetym...i'll do dat jz 4 u my dear...sape2 yg baca nie,hope ya'll jgn sedih k...tak bgs arh sedih2...

always and forever lovin' you;
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