My Ramblings
Friday, January 23, 2004
[21/01/04]-Wednesdae
nari skola alek cpat....coz of CNY la...but der waz prefect investiture training afta skool so kite sume alek kol 12 g2...pas 2 kiter g mkn n stuffs...aku ader ajak kwn aku asilah ngn fizah g ikot aku rent pit...tapi kitorang alek dulu la...tukar baju sumer den aru kite g...haiz...bodoh nye kdai...kite dpt jauh2 pas 2 tutup lak...kongasam sey...abe kite sume da fed up sey...alek tros arh...aku sempat singgah beli air grass jelly pat bdk int...abe kite alek arh pas 2....went 2 airport dlm kol 6 lbh g2...nak g anta makcik aku arh...she n my uncle nak g new zealand...wah!mesti best kan...gerek nye...all d best 2 em 4 deir holidaes...da smp airport aku trus jumpa makcik n pakcik aku....abg sdare aku pon ader...kesian sey dia still lom dpt keje...ish...ish..ish...kesian2...drg masok kol 8 lebih padahal flight kol 9pm eh..haha!style2...aku ngn adeq aku lambai la pat cermin..pe la....cam org kiasu g2...haha!takde la...memain jer...drg da blah abe aku,adeq aku ngn mak aku g beli mkn pat yasalam...beli tau...pas 2 bawak balik...eh,wait!b4 dat,tym pat airport kite g survey ader kdai makanan tak...veranda ader la tapi tak de halal...so,kite kurang pasti...n tym nak kat kluar der waz dix man carrying dulang wid soft drinks arh..cam cawan kfc g2...pas 2 kan...guess wad??air die tumpar sey...abe kena sluar aku....peh kurang ajar...die jln je..tak tau ckp sorie arh kire...darah aku up arh...pe tak bingit sey....sluar aku n sandal aku kena air pepsi kalau tak slh abe buat bdh arh....mak kau...aku maki org 2 rabak2 sak pat situ jugak tapi kan...nampak sah die tak buat pape kan or 2 fite bck...die org cina...jadi tak paham arh aku maki pe...haha!aku bingit giler sey tym 2...pas 2 tym 2 aku nga gaduh ngn kakak aku lak...haiz...tak tau la...aku actuali da sot ngn skola....krg tau la...aku dah fail 4 subjects n all dat aku pass were maths,malay n fnn...yg lain masok dlm tong sampah arh...pe tak kecewa sey...aku sendiri bingit pat diri aku...pe nak jadi ngn aku nie??da bodoh sgt ker??aku fikiran da tertekan abe like...frankly speaking arh...like kakak aku adding salt 2 aku peh wound...like die makin hurt aku...krg get wad aku mean??she like tak paham aku peh condition..mmg la aku tak lang die asl aku cam g2....aku tau aku slh tapi i gt my reasons 4 treating u dat wae....nt dat i want it 2 be dat wae tapi apakan daya....it's uncontrollable....aku da tak leh tahan lagi sey..maksud aku,aku ader suroh kakak aku hate aku 4 wad u had done...aku ought 2 sae aniting kan in dat condition n expects her 2 paham but she dint...she like jz continue 2 hurt me...she did tings dat i dun wish c-ing her doin...but she did....haiz...wad m i suppose 2 sae nw??aku tak tau arh...kalau u in my situation,u ought 2 be dat wae...same wae s i did...malah,u penah be in dat situation but i jz take tings easy dat tym...nt trying 2 add salt 2 ur pain....haiz...mak aku naik taxi ngn adeq aku tapi aku sengaja naik bus...sorang2 lak 2....aku tak dgr ckp mak aku cos she ask me 2 naik taxi wid her..aku bantah ckp dia cos i noe i need d tym 2 be alne...aku naik 228 srg2....pk,pk n pk is all dat i did in d bus...smpkan airmata meleleh sey pkkan nie sume...esp sal kakak aku nye hal...slamat tak de org duk blakang...sume duk depan...abe bile pat bus stop je aku lap airmata....abe tym pat satu bus stop nie aku nmpk dix mat arh...mat mane sak mrayap mlm2 buta....mat sey kena...skali dix guy dat i tot waz a mat naik bus tau...abe makin dekat aku nmpk muka dia familiar sey....rupe2 nye Ali..kwn pri skol aku arh...da lama jugak tak nmpk die since skola bukak...haha!he's doin well arh....ok2...slamat die tak nmpk aku nangis sey...kalau tak guarentee die tanye asl...reached hm i managed 2 put up a smile in front of my mom n bro...aku masok bilik adeq aku abe aku nangis srg2 arh....da telampau sedih sgt...da tak leh sedih lagi...haiz...dalah..aku tanak broad over it la...tapikan takpe...tak pape....
always and forever lovin' you;
2:34 AM
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