My Ramblings
Friday, February 27, 2004
from dulu adeq aku tak sms aku but den dia da sms arh...
2 pon aku sms dier dulu..da takleh tahan arh...it has been lng since i waited 4 his sms-es...kalau nari dier tak reply msg aku,aku tak tau pe nak buat...
but eventually,he reply back...bgs arh..good 2 hear dat he's in a gud condition...so,one prob da selesai...
The 2nd problem blom selesai lagi...i duno arh...i'm so confuse now...she has left me ova wad otha ppl sae...haiz...ntahlah...aku tak tau sape org2 yg related 2 aku yg blang dier jgn dekat ngn aku...meaning jgn rapat ngn aku arh cos dey sae she hurt me...ish,lame sia...hu da hell r dey??cud da dey confess nw??plz...i need 2 noe hu u guys n gals are...plz la...sape sak??i dun recall havin outside frens knowing her all dix while...kalau budak btss tu takpe jugak sey nie ntah budak mane aku pon tak tau sey...haiz...hopefulli i'll get 2 noe sooner or later arh..hopefulli...but still she has LEFT ME!!!HAIZ!!
lagu sedih sak pat ria...damn...sedih,sedih n sedih..wads dix mann??dun ask me 2 cool ppl....cos i noe i kant...
aku sway siak nari...cos tym pat band kena marah...damn...da band instructor marah...shit la he...mule2 dier test kitorang sal d signature keys n den bass claf n duno wad claf la...buat bdh sua...kesian cindy sik2 kena jer...like all dox while cindy nye name yg paling byk kena panggil...kiter kesian pat dier sey...ish3...den i recommend nye buku dier soh kluarkan tau...den he canon pat trombone section..peh sway...kiter plak ader 2 jer..padahal ader 3 org tau...den start ar dier nye nag..."i told u rite each n evry1 of u mux haf one..."he ask where's mine??den i sae lom photocopy but padahal i gt mine la..hajar nye lom photocopy...but s a siz i'll take up da punishment 4 her arh...takpe la...nt salu pe aku buat g2 sey...it's an opportunity mann 2 do dat tho it hurts till i cried sia...cos his werds jz hurt me...damn him...fuck la...bleh bla la gay...cc...but my dear hajar,dun feel guilty yah...i jz do it cos of u...dat waz d 1st ting dat cumes 2 my mind...so,takpe la k...dun worry gurl..i'm ok nw cumer still angry ngn si GILER 2...mampos tanak sey..
N 2 him,u noe hu u r but i doubt u can read my blog la...haha!simply cos u dun haf my blog add..ntah i dun tink u gt internet access at home..ntah...tak tau la kalau ade....kalau ader bgs arh...leh gak baca nie kan...i duno wad 2 sae bout my feelings 4u...i duno...i'm so confuse nw...kadang i jz feel like i'm interupting da both of u...get wad i mean??i dun wana expose u too much la..n often i feel like giving u up but i kant...ntah la...i jz kant...i duno y...i still luv u n wud luv u if fate wud bring us 2 separation...dat i duno arh...duno if we r bound 2 separate...but i'm willing 2 do dat if it's 4 ur happiness wid u noe hu...u haf 2 make decision u noe...i mean an a.s.a.p decision...so dat tings wun get more complicated s tym passes by....i dun wanna be d 3rd party..fiza undastands me...u can go ask her...she knows hw i feel...hw awkward i feel...hw confuse i waz....haiz...onli if u cud be mine,wun it be great den??it wud la of course but i doubt so....i'll be happi den....but 2 bad hw sad,u're sum1 else's property...u ought 2 choose her den me...i can guarantee u dat cos u gt 2 noe her 1st n nevertheless,u're hers 1st...wer do i stand??no wer mann.....onli in ur hart but wads da use of it if i haf 2 share??evry gurl wun like it if she has 2 share...trust me...so,it's up 2 u arh hu 2 choose..i jz hope u wud make wise decisions n a quick one cos i kant stand d torture readi...it hurts me a lot....haiz.....jz do wads best 4 u n i'll respect ur decision even if it hurts...u dun bother bout hw i'll manage la..u jz do wad u want n i'll make it possible....lucks....btw,jz wana tell ya dat i've been repeating da sng "kenangan di taman cinta"...it's jz a nice sng..do listen 2 it if u gt da tym yah...
haiz...again....if u're nt da 1.....da sng jz reminds me of ppl...haiz...my luv ones...haiz....sedih sak...takpe la...onli me,myself n i understands me....
always and forever lovin' you;
9:23 PM
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