My Ramblings

Haiz...
wad do i sae???
nt been feeling well again...
2 hajar,sorie dat i dint attend band hari tu...i mean 4 da last 2 practices arh..
waz nt in good health arh...
haiz...pe nak jadi ngn aku nie..
niwae,i gt bad news 4u...i duno if dix is gd or bad news 4u arh...
i've jz found out dat i gt asthma...damn!gt records of it since 1995 but a minor 1 la...nt so serious...duno wen it wud get serious tho...
haiz....

Sadiq,tanx 4 updating tho erm...u're bz wid stuffs...but maybe u update nt cos of me...u jz updated so u want to...haha!dun mind me...niwae,4 ur info,if u were 2 sae onli liyana,liyanah,namirah,yan,zat n fuad ONLI were 2 care 4u,den i wanna correct u..der r ur otha classmates hu does care 4u...nt onli em..i noe dat...u can go ard n ask..noone wants deir classmates 2 be out of da skool...trust me...tho i haf doubt dat u wun...nvm bout me...i'm talking rubbish...

Haiz...der goes me sighing again...everytym i sighed mesti gerenti batok nye...lyk susah arh i wana breathe out...ntahlah pe nak jadi ngn aku skrg...m i gonna die soon???haiz....Adha found out i gt asthma...i duno hw cum he knew bout it...duno hu leak out cos i onli told ma sis...aku tanak tuduh sembarang arh..he told me my fren blang but hw d heck my fren tau...i dint tell em...takpe la..hu ever d person is,nvm bout her....it's over niwae...he found out readi...waz shocked tho wen he suddenly sms me cos waz practically waiting 4 his sms-es 2 return 2 me....bt dat nvr happen till lyk yest....hapi dat he sms me lah tapi pon skejap jer....

i wana let out smth but i duno if i shud...i'm so confuse nw...kept asking myself qns datz unanswered...it has nth 2 do wid krg sumer yg aku kenal la...so,jgn terase plak ye...dun ask wads troubling me cos i dun haf da mood 2 talk bout it...sis asked me tadi but i jz denied...i duno if i shud sae it out...i DUNO....haiz...my mind is troubled nw...i duno hw 2 face d daes ahead of me...daes been real hard on me...been putting up a happi person jz 2 make ppl happi n stuffs...kalau aku sedih mesti org tanye n den i wun be able 2 jawab...so,i better hide myself den revealing...datz da best ting 2 do now...but rest assured,i will be able 2 handle...onces i kant,i'll confide in ppl...c how arh...but 4 nw,pls dun ask wad...PLEASE!!!

~skool~
nth much 2 talk tho...
been da same lately...
cumer hati tu si anal ali ntah kenape dier hapi sgt...valentine's dae eve agaknye bab tu dier hapi..salu nye tak sey...ntahlah...weirdo..nvm bout her...
niwae,prefect investiture da tukar hari....
no more valentine's dae but dix cumin thursdae....
pat s'pore post centre.....paya lebar der...gt practice tml s usual...
mcm biase la...dey changed d whole ting n it's damn complicating...
ish3...nasib la kawan2 ku sedarjah...krg kena attend nie prefect investiture babkan krg kan special....haha!4e n 5n je pegi..yg lain tu bleh blah la eh...tak yah sua....nie tuk V.I.Ps jer...

klah...aku nak masok tdo arh...tml skooling...Nitez!sweet dreams!luv ya all....muacks!!!

always and forever lovin' you;
11:22 PM

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