My Ramblings
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
waz damn upset over tings dat happen so fast in my life...
cudnt accept em so fast....so wad did i do???
did smth dat wasnt so pleasing yest...waz so sot yest...i cudnt resort 2 otha tings but jz 2 dat...but i shant reveal wad i did arh...
i dint even went 4 recess 2dae...dint haf d appetite 2 eat...mood pun da ilang...waz practicalli in a bad mood d whole morning...but asked asilah 2 buy me plain water so i cud mkn ubat...imagine i eat ubat wid an empty stomach??n i dint eat d dae b4..i mean nite tym arh...so my stomach waz empty wen i eat d medicine...onli ate bread wid kaya afta skool wid sum crackers...
gave a letter 2 hajar n i spoke 2 her bout sum1...told her dat she left my life readi...n s i waz saying dat,i stumbled over my werds cos waz crying...tears rolled down my cheek s i sae dat...she asked me aside n asked me wad happen...cudnt tell her wad happen cos da bell ring...she ask me 2 relax of corse...waz suppose 2 sae d pledge 2dae but wasnt feeling good,so muhsina took d pledge 4me...tanx gurl...
Waznt even in da mood 2 c bro....tot wanted 2 meet him afta so lng we dint meet...but den takut i cudnt control myself arh..tanak involve dia sey...so,i dint meet him early in d morning...stayed in class during recess tym...hajar replied my letter....afta skool aru den i saw my bro...pat canteen...den again he waz asking money...i bagi la..nmpk sah kan...pitied him tho..nanti tk makan pengsan plak...prevention is better den cure....he g beli ape ntah...makanan dat is...n went off...dpt bebual ngn dia kejap...jadi la kan...dari tak jumpe..lagi miz la...
My dearest Hajar,tanx 4 volunteering wanting 2 talk 2 her..da tak yah...or u oreadi did??if u oreadi did den tanx gurl...tank u very much 4 helping sum1 nt worth havin...appereciate ur help..tapi kalau u lom ckp ngn dia pon takpe...at least u volunteered 2 help...tanx...but da tak yah....she personalli went 2 wait 4me outside skool tadi...so,da settle arh...i guess....hope tings wud werk out well 4 us 4 nw...tak sanggup nak hadapi perkara cam smlm..n tanx 4 replying my letter...hopefuli we cud haf d gd relationship bck again s per normal...hope so...i do believe u my dear..tanx 4 d advice u gave me...i'll put it 2 good use...i too realise dat all dat u haf said were true...tanx 4 da advice yah...n seriously speaking,i believe u...i dint ever haf doubts in u...tak penah...serious....dun ever mention u're noone 2me...dat totali wrong arh...u're sum1 2 me...n lastly,of course i do care 4 u too...been caring 4 u since dulu....up 2u 2 believe sum1 nt worth havin....
Alighted from da bus tadik....from bdk int of course...went dwn d stairs of d bus stop...by d corner of my left eyes,aku nmpk dak2 mat2 duk bwh blk...so aku jln la cpat2...did notice like sum1 waz following me...abe btol...ader dak laki nie ikot aku...mule2 dia kater...'excuse me,my fren want 2 get 2 noe u,can or nt??'....haha!n i waz like tercengang pat situ...tepanjat jap aku sey...den he asked again...'my fren want 2 get 2 noe u can or nt??'...aku ckp la aniting...he asked 4 my number...n i gave him arh...kalau tak bagi nanti pe lak dia kater...sombong lak kan...dun like ppl 2 ckp cam g2 arh...abe dak tu sms2 aku sumer...dia kater name dia ramadan...haha!aku teingat sey ader dak skola aku name ramadan..waz scared dat it waz him...tapi ntah lah...dia kater he from damai sec n in sec 5 nw...ish..ish...ish...aku plak tetdo tadik....dia kol smp 3 kali....bile aku tak reply sms dia je mesti dia kol...aku tak angkat arh...mls sey nak layan...aku letak silent jer...pi mampos...
hmm..k den..shall take my leave...till here den...aku nak g buat aku nye hw arh...malay hw la...haha!nanti cikgu haryati bising arh....so,kenalah buat kan...bye...ciao....
always and forever lovin' you;
8:23 PM
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