My Ramblings
Monday, February 02, 2004
nw i aint gt d mood 2 sleep..n it's nearly twelve...
haiz...blom satu hal settle lagi satu lak crop up...
itu la hdup aku kalau krg nak tau...
life full of problems...
kpala aku nie mcm nk explode pkkan benda nie sumer...
n i dint haf d appetite 2 mkn n eat my ubat...haiz...
ubat shub b finishin soon but i guess i havent done my job well...
dun mention well arh..satisfactory pon lum amcm nak well sey..haiz..
been asking myself y do tings haf 2 happen at 1 go...y??y??y??
y me?y bad tings happen 2 me??i'm so down n stuffs...
Gurl,i'm so sorie 2 haf done wadeva 2 hurt u d otha dae...i dint mean 2 hurt u so much..nw i'm in guilt n confused...we were in good condition dix few daes..ingatkan ader harapan but den dix ting crops up....wad d hell??!!y nw??wen tings wid her r werking so well??y??cud sum1 answer dat??haiz...i duno hw 2 face her nw...gurl,u noe wad i mean wen u read my letter...hope u understood wad i meant...i'm so sorie onces again...
haiz..bro havent been sms-ing me lately...maybe he gt no money 2 top up his card...haiz..miz him so much...last talked 2 him waz on fridae...2 pun skejap je cos he on d wae nak g sembahyang...den he dissappears....ntah2 dia tanak bebual ngn aku tak...kadang i feel dat i'm using up his money..u noe by sms-ing him evrydae...like serba salah arh aku g2...waste his duit...haiz...but wad 2 do...damn,i realli miz him sia...nvm la...tml i can c him...fine wid me den...
dear,u dun haf 2 tink dat wae..i dun tink he'll hate u..kalau he nak hate u pon takkan he nak pi bebual ngn u still wen u gurau-ed wid him together wid liyana...he wun hate u la...n plz,i beg u...dun mention d werd leave again...plz...it made me weeped u noe...u noe i cudnt hear d werd leave n u still use it...haiz...i dun want cos of him we becum like dix...enuf of d probs i'm facing nw...i tanak aniting 2 happen 2 us...wun want aniting 2 happen....haiz...
HAIZ...problem2...bile kau nak selesai nie???bile??ckp la bile??Argh!skrg 1 of kwn aku name dia da kena cancel from taking 'o' levels...wad d heck sia??pe nye skola nie??pe slh dia sia??aku tau la dia like often tak dtg skola...tu pon like 4 kali jer...BUT does d skool ever give a damn 2 noe wads his probs???do dey??haiz...aku tak tau pe nak jadi ngn skola...senang2 cancel name org...i've gt a job 2 do tml...wish me luck yah 4 wadeva i wana do tml...haiz...SOT!!!!
SOT!!!!!SOT!!!!!i jz feel like slashing my wrist but haiz...takpe la...i take my leave 4 nw...4 nw,i hate my life...
always and forever lovin' you;
10:39 PM
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