My Ramblings
Friday, March 12, 2004
When I first met you, you told me exactly how it would be..
You had a lady and couldn't spend all your time with me..
I only wanted to kick it, so I said 'cool, you can keep her'..
Long as you satisfy me..
But as the weeks went by, I started feelin' strange..
Somethin' was deep in my heart, somethin' I can't explain..
I think I'm fallin' in love with you boy..
I'm needing you so much, I'm cryin' just to feel your touch..
I played so hard that you could get rid of her..
I played the main role to get her off your mind..
I did almost everything to kick her off..
But to no avail, you're still with her..
Despite knowing that, I loved you..
I love you real damn much.. No doubt..
That nothing in this world could ever explain how I felt..
I was the only one hoping that we would last to eternity..
But I betrayed your trust..
I made a big mistake for fucking someone else..
And soon, you knew it..
You were half-hearted by then..
You were mad.. Real mad.. But..
I manage to gain you back..
After all the cries and reasons I made up..
For God's sake..
We were all back to square one..
I was so into you then..
Was damn serious about us.. You knew that too..
I hurt myself just to let you know that I love..
I gave everything to you to let you know I care..
I did anything to show you I miss..
Despite knowing that Im just being used..
After that last meeting, you changed..
Din even know why you ended up like that..
I seek highs and lows for you..
But you were not around..
You left without a word.. Im hanging..
I cant face the fact at first..
Crying all night, waiting for you to come back..
Coz you left a very big impact on my life..
Were so worried for you now and then..
Soon, I'd moved on but still hoping for a miracle..
Till now, till this date.. I'd waited..
It had been half a year since you left..
Its not that I want to hang on to you..
Its not that I want to longed for you..
Its not that Im hoping for you..
But just to let you know that you were the one I'd love the most..
always and forever lovin' you;
9:27 PM
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