My Ramblings
Friday, March 05, 2004
Gosh!He wanted me 2 leave him alone 4 at least 2 or 3 daes...Wad has happen??wad??waz it smth dat has got 2 do wid me??hope not cos haiz...ntahlah...it kant be possibly cos of me...it wun...it kant afford 2 be me...dat so not him....i noe him....at least a lil la...not all...he neva did asked me 2 leave him alone..tak penah sia...but y 2dae??smth happen 2u and i noe u're troubled..i undastand ur situation...relax arh...ur parents will undastand...u terangkan btol2 pat drg and dey'll undastand...trust me...dey r jz trying 2 be concern n worried bout u....dah la...jangan sot2 pas 2 sedih2...tk bgs tau...i tak suke arh...
Haiz...i'm jz hurt by wad he had said earlier on...wad r u trynna tell me??wad??r u trying 2 tell me 2 leave ur life??first,u ask me 2 leave u alone 4 2 or 3 daes...then,it'll be months n then followed by years...i wun be able 2 take dat u noe...gosh!!is smth like dat gona happen soon??nvm bout dat...if datz ur wish,den it'll be in my command...i'll do s u sae..yah...datz wad i'm gona do tho it'll hurt me having 2 do dat....it can kill but den wad da fuck...haiz..nvm...
~Tanx 4 trynna help my dear~
Liyana,if u're reading dix,den gud arh cos dix goes 2u....tanx 4 wanting 2 help la...i eman cos of him n stuffs....i noe u mean well but ntahlah...aku cam got d feelings he love her more den he love me...datz like so true and dat reflects well in his msgs...sedih 2 sedih la tapi wad can i do??aku da takde choice but 2 "let him go"...get wad i mean??bab 2 bile kau bebual sal dier sumer and like when u write his name on my table,aku cam deny not having anyting 2wards him..datz da main reason....aku da cam tak smangat arh...aku salu pk yg dia suke her more datz y i'm in dix kinda state....aku tanak dier pk yg aku terhegeh-hegeh kan dier...wad will he be tinking den...wun i be like 'cheap' 2 him??datz hw i feel...kau jgn salahkan dier arh...he noes wads best 4 him thus making a wise decision 4 himself...if he tinks dat she's more worht having den go ahead arh...i'll respect his decision n take it as a test in life dat i shud lead...tanx again 4 evryting....
hey pipol,i gotta go arh...mom's calling me...get bck 2 ya all again yah...c ya soon...gona miz u guys n gals...
always and forever lovin' you;
9:50 PM
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