My Ramblings
Thursday, April 01, 2004
life has always been bad 4 me dix daes...knape??y??y all dix happen 2 me??
I jz kinda came bck from skool...got fnn remedial arh...finish up d coursewerk thingie...but of course dint finish la...peh confuse...even i need a few ppl 2 explain 2 me bck wad i shud do...kesian oyster sos kena amek paper all da wae 2 da staff room which waz far away...haha!he waz ok la...friendly teacher...bleh adapt 2 our nonsense sumer...d class waz making fun of him n stuffs bab april fool kan nari....hehe!ape lagi...kiter bully dier arh...tapi dier tipu...g beli air..abe tak bagi kitorang g break....hmph!
walk 2 da bus stop wid yoke sun tadik...waz practicalli talking la....den we saw budak2 4e1 pat bus stop....n definitely i know he waz der...n my instincts were right....he waz der nga duduk ngn kwn2 dier sumer...matthew waz smiling at me n looking bck 2 him...yah matthew,u knew bout it readi...so,shhhh!!he stick out his head n looked at us...maybe upon hearing wad matthew waz saying...duno la wad matthew told him...asked yoke sun 2 stand at the back...abe told her not 2 leave me alone bab matthew waz calling her...upon c-ing him my hart jz shatters...shatters into fine pieces....wanted 2 cry but dint wana trouble yoke sun arh...boarded the bus n den again i told yoke sun 2 wait 4me...cos matthew asked her 2 go 1st...hw dare u matthew...he waz gona be by my side if yoke sun dint gv him way 2 go 1st...tanx yoke sun...u're my fren..hehe!he went straight 2 the bck of the bus...but we sat at the front...i sat alone...inside nye seat...looked at the window n noe wad??i waz troubled...tinking of him jz makes me wana cry...believe it or not,tears did roll dwn my cheeks but i quickly wipe em...dint want any1 2 c em...all dox pain jz came bck 2 me...remembering all dox werds....his werds...his sweet werds...haiz...i doubt i'll get 2 hear em again...COS he doesnt look at me nimore...he's like avoiding me...he never smile at me again...tho been wanting 2 c his smile...haiz....nvm la...if he tinks datz d best 4 him,den i'll jz have 2 take it n adapt 2 his new style...BUT ppl,i'm 1 stubborn kid hu is difficult 2 jz adapt 2 anotha person in such quick tym....i kant forget him....i jz kant do dat...my harts' not willing 2 do dat....not wen his love has been spread over 2 me...i duno if he's using me or m seriously havin feelings 4 me...dat i definitely duno..sum ppl told me 2 follow wad my feelings were like but sum disagree...so ppl,he shud i listen 2??hu??i'm so confuse here....darn!haiz...enuf la....it'll take me all day 2 write d sadness in me...
2 sadiq,hey....change ur attitude la...be like wad mrs haffidz praised u yest...u being a good boy by doing all ur werk instead of sleeping....s a fren,i jz hope d best for u...jgn mls2 la...u're not suppose 2 sleep in class....u're intelligent...dun u noe dat???teachers noe u were clever but u were lazy...lazy 2 do deir werk n den sleep during deir lesson...prove 2 em dat u can do it...n i noe u can do it...haf confidence in urself...
P:s: Do u believe if i say I KANT FORGET U??Do u believe if i say I TINK OF U DAY N NITE??Do u believe if i
say I MISS U ALL DAY??not even any day is missed out....Do u believe if i say I LOVE U??to the
person i'm sending all the above 2,cud u plz answer em a.s.a.p....if u cud la...if u cudnt or u wudnt,i'll
understand..u dun haf 2 explain why..............................................
always and forever lovin' you;
4:52 PM
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