My Ramblings

Haiz..life aint great after all...been busy wid skool...i mean seriously busy wid skool...sumore got mock exams...my god!stress sia...n wid de attitude i haf in me,dun feel like studying..duno wad up wid me...mock exams also like wanna give up...i dint study so much 4 maths n de paper juz now was so damn tricky...it was difficult...damn fucking difficult...majority of de class dint manage 2 finish..even de good ones...dat proves dat we dun have enuf tym....all de qns we like tricky ones...need thinking...even de one mark qns...haiz...niwae,shrewed up my eng paper 1 yest...did de letter 1st cos it tot easy...den i finish doin it at abt 8.40am...damn...very long sia i do de letter...1 hour...n i waz left wid 45 minutes 2 do de compo..my god!of course not enuf time lar...i finish off quickly coz i scared got no time left...den duno whether de story good enuf or juz worst...haiz...nvm bout dat k...had enuf...i want 2 rest....been dead tired lately...been sleeping late,late n late....coz study lar...lucky tml saturday...no paper...at least i can wake up late a bit...

Been very long since i updated dix blog...syla ade gak update...haha..malas arh....if on comp pon,stakat check mails n frendster...lazy write blog lar...haha..but i bored now....so,better write..haha...bored,bored n bored...since juz now...but my 2 most beloved "pak aji n mak aji" manage 2 teman me go buy t-shirt...haha...de t-shirt ok2 lar...smgt national day..haha...takde lar..mepek jer...bile mase entah aku smgt national day..haha...da kluar rumah at least tak boring arh..rather den sitting n doing nothing at home...datz worst...so i dun prefer dat...went out 2 tamps den walk walk lar...giler giler sume...haha...dlm bus ade mat sek2 tgk kite...seram sey...kite mule2 letak kaki atas krusi...konon nye cool arh..kan syla??haha..abe paiseh at last..ahaha...mat tu tgk sey...cam tak penah tgk org kape...pi tgk depan lar mat...mat kental...haha...

haiz...why does dix has 2 happen nw??i dun wana hurt u,u noe??u noe dat very well...but i gotta say it...i duno wad made me say de truth...u juz accept it n 4get wad i say k...dun tink bout it since u dun like 2 do all de thinkings...i also dun like u 2 tink so much...my dear alyssa,all dat i've said is really important....u got 2 move on even widout me...u got dat special someone...whom u'll live life wid de person happily...not wid me...i wun bring happiness 2 u....but i'll bring sadness 2 u...i'm scared i'll do dat...i noe i do dat readi...i did dat 2 u..duno how many times ready...Argh!I duno wad 2 do now....i'm happy wid ur presence juz dat...erm...nvm lar...dun wana make u sad more....i'm so much more happy wen u were wid me...so happy...i even feared of losing u...really...serious....i not bluffing....u gave me de happiness i've been yearning 4...de laughter created by u juz stays in me....each time my mind thinks of u,i'll be glad 2 smile..remembering de happy moments we had together...yeah...especially de smile n de laughter of urs...during exam oso can smile n make me laugh one...funny lar u..datz de speciality u had in u...u nvr once made me sad...but me,haiz...dun say readi lar....

always and forever lovin' you;
10:03 PM

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