My Ramblings

Haiz..pity dix blog...been abondoning it since duno wen..haiz...tml got fnn moxk exam but i dun gv a damn 2 study...doin smth else now...replying sumone's msg thru letter...not him..it's someone else...so,yar...i dun feel like studying nw...serious...i wanna gv up....gv up my studies...haiz...so  stress....wid fnn coursework,load waz added...darn...wid 2 teachers somemore..haiz...more headache mann....one say dix n de otha say dat...one teacher say good n de otha say have nt completed...my god!wen can dix fnn thing end??when??i know it's 4 de o level but den,dun pressurise us too much lar...we had enuf...nt doin de rite ting...on de wrong path..my god..n we haf 2 like do evryting again..haix...cam mane tk sot...ckp...haix...

life has been worst lately...
serious worst...
last sunday me n arif fought...coz of juz a gurl....haiz...
not dat i'm jealous...it's him who waz jealous dat i befriend wid dat gurl...
coz simply she likes me...datz all...datz de main reason 4 him 2 get jealous easily...
he scared i wud be taken a aback by her...he feared i wud be wid her..
but dont u understand??i juz seek ur understanding my dear....juz dat..i need juz dat 2 werk out wid de relationship...if i say me n her r juz frens,den we are...we are very close frens...in fact,derz no werd 2 describe de closeness we had dix few weeks...since de day i knew her so much at a go....u dint understand,dont u??wen i say me n her r juz frens??instead,u turn out 2 be jealous n stuffs....i waz oready thinking abt smth bad dat tym...lucky i waz wid her n yoke sun...waz at yoke sun's plce wen dix took plce...haix....dey were der 2 comfort me wen i cried...cried till i got no tears 2 cry anymore...she waz der 2 comfort me wen i needed her...juzz understand dat....i'm jz a typical,straight,normal gurl...i wudnt go into such things...dun u believe me??wer's ur trust??haiz...c wad happen wen u hurt her??i'm hurt too u knoe..anyone hu reads ur msg wud be hurt so much...i cant stand ppl hurting my frens...n in de end,all dox language were blurted out...yar,i did it on purpose...i waz wid a mixture of feelings...angry plus sad...sad coz u offended her so much...angry coz u got jealous widout a valid reason..unless u see me wid a guy or ur guyfrens,den u wana be jealous,it's ok lar..dix,wid a gurl....my god...please lar dear...change ur mind set...change ur attitude dear...plz..haix...

hmm...lucky evrything waz alright dat monday...he msg me but at first i dint reply...waz still angry at him..waz sad too...alyssa dint even sleep dat night...i felt so bad u knoe...haix...cudnt sleep well too...in school,i dint even look at him..not even a glance...haha....he msg me..but den i still dint reply...last last,on de way home,he msg me again...erm,de msg waz sort of touching n it touched my hart....fiza n syla asked me 2 reply...so did dat..done dat...we cleared de misunderstanding n he promised 2 not get jealous wen he sees me wid her...hmm..good now dat evrytings clear.....

hmm..ok lar...i gtg...sleepy ready...nitez...ciao~

always and forever lovin' you;
11:30 PM

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