My Ramblings
Friday, August 27, 2004
it started off wid laughter...too much laughter indeed...went 2 mcdonald at de interchange wid amanda,farhanah n emi...tanx amanda 4 de treat yar... tanx a lot...waz juz playing tho... we laugh n joke s we ate....really...we grabbed too much attention from de audience cox dey were practically looking at us each tym laughter breaks in2 de mcdonald... went 4 malay remedial afta dat...only de four of us were der...noone else except 4 us...so cikgu asked us 2 do de letter writing... actually cikgu has been fun always..it's juz dat we cant tolerate her nag... her nag so long n naggy type...hu can tolerate sia??noone infact...but in actual fact,she's a nice person... lps abes kite balek..dlm kol 3.40 g2 arh... tot i wud stay happi 4 de rest of de day but something so hurtful happened...
fer de mlys,have u heard of de phrase "Bagaikan ditusuk sembilu pilu di hati??bagaikan di tusuk paku di hati"??have heard of em??sure all of u have heard em..it waz so painful dat i cried non-stop...yah..non stop...n i mean non stop...i cudnt forget wad happen...it waz so painful..if i cud juz kill myself at de very spot 2 solve de problem i wud already done so...seriously speaking..i'm nt joking... it waz so painful..my heart waz tattered n torn... it waz torn apart...too far apart... wad i came 2 noe juz tore me apart.... wad did i do 2 deserve dix??tell me will u??in wad way have i changed??tell me.... my dear darling,whoever de person is,de person will know or wun noe at all...i love u so much...too much..i cared 4 u so much... i can even say dat i cared 4 u more den i cared 4 my own flesh n blood brother..i can say dat widout even thinking...i juz have 2 say dat out...no need 4 me 2 think...juz voice out... wen i got 2 knoe...haix...nvm lar..it's no use already...u wudnt want 2 trust me... or wud u??i wudnt know..dat remains a qn unanswered... haix...i'm so depressed...so dishearted...soul-breaking...futile...how can u do dix 2 me??why??why mux u??juz 2 let u know,i've been loving u since de day i got 2 know u...plz...trust me...dat de only way...it's up 2 u whether 2 trust me or nt..i wun force alright... i wun...datz 4 sure..but saying abt things i did but u said i dint,hurts me 2 de core...maybe u wun even care if i'm hurt...cox u wudnt know how deep de cut is nw in my hart by ur words....ur words were too strong dat all de walls in me collapse at de moment u mention ur words 2 me...haix...
2 de rest.... why are u treating me dix way??i'm wondering wad i've done 2 de rest of u... wad have i done 2 deserve dix??i dun even noe some ppl...nt even close..n dix is how dey treat me??wad de fuck....KALAU NAK BEBUAL PON,BEBUAL LA FACE 2 FACE...BLEH BEBUAL KAN...TAK YAH BILANG ORG LAEN KE APE...i hate it wen i have 2 find out from others or i find it out myself.... I HATE IT...ONCE AGAIN..I HATE IT SO MUCH...TOO DE UTMOST...so kalau nak bebual 2,JANGAN BEBUAL BLAKANG...TAK BAEK...DOSA...BEBUAL DEPAN...JADI SEMUA BOLEH SOLVE...be it de ppl are younger or older,i juz wish we can settle dix once n for all... if u all wana talk,lets talk..i dun mind...i dun mind using up all my time talking...but i hate it wen ppl talk behind my back...BLEH BEBUAL DEPAN KAN!!!!!!!!
haix...dalah...mcm siak arh... i feel like an obstruction in ppl's life...i am,right??maybe i shud fade away...go far far away from all of u...so dat i wun hurt all of u by my change...change 2 de extreme...i wun be so stress n all of u wud be free from my presence...free from my poison...poison dat hurts all of u all.. i'm might consider studying abroad...duno wen...soon maybe...tgk dulu arh...lets c wad my decision gonna be k...dalah..i'm so sad...cant be bothered ready...
I JUZ WISH I CUD PERISHED IN PPL'S LIFE...FOREVA.................................
always and forever lovin' you;
10:46 PM
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