My Ramblings

reporting 2 updates...haha...
been busy dix few days..busy wid wad??
busy jln raye lah...wad else kan...
sampaikan tak sempat nak blog....haha

i juz realised how pathetic i m....how bad i waz...
how disappointing i waz dat dae....
here goes de story....
went jln raye wid sec sch frens...
met s usual at de bdk int fon booth...
1st house- zat's fren...huda....
reach der...ok lah.... kenal2 sume...
den goes dix ugly part....
arif got so mesra wid huda's bro....
too mesra i mean...
smpkan i gv up upon eatin...
havent had my breakfast 4 dat dae bt i gave up...
cox de kid kept melekat-ing wid arif...
no chance of me gettin thru....
c how pathetic i can get??
gettin all tense up cox of juz a kid??
i juz wanted de attention...juz dat...
but wad do i get??nth...
not hungry waz juz an excuse of gettin away...
haiz.... slamat azhar waz der on de sofa..he dint eat..
tah asal... fyza shud come...i'll come complaining at her den..
dat'll b great cox i'll haf sum1 2 seek 2 during dix kind of things...
but she waznt der...haix...sorang2 la sendirian merana....
wah.... berkemain mesra..... tak pasal arh
i kept on quiet.... he kept askin why...
n i said nth... nth all de way.... n den,he asked zat 2 go out...
i knew he wanted 2 go smoke....
smoke weneva he 's stress up.... smoke weneva he's angry...
lucky thing he dint shout at me,if not....things wud haf got worst...
i bet things wud get worst...wid de mood im in,things can turn nasty...
haix...i think im lackin in attention...datz why....
if not,wad for kan......

haix.... i dun noe y i cant take his jokes...at tyms lah...
but it's like most of de tym...i dun want later i cant take it...how??
not dat i dun like him 2 joke,i like it...dat makes him a funny guy...
fun 2 be wid... but nt all de tym.... jokin day in n out.... at tyms i dun
even noe whether he's joking or sayin de truth.... i duno....
hari tu,he shouted at me...n he claimed he waz joking.....
bt i dint noe at first... sape suke sey matair dier pekik 4 no reason kan..
den i mrajuk... dier kena pujuk lah....
sam kacau dier..... alamak...sal kau g kacau dier... da takde keje eh??
haix...n now,im hurt... truly hurt... cox he waz embarassed dat sam ajuk dier
haiyo... jgn la ajuk dier.... ape seh kau..... mind ur own business....
im so sad...so disappointed in myself.... so hurt... but nehmind.....
i've always loved him..... n i will always luv him...
im grateful 2 haf him.... he's de one i've wished for... i dun wish 2 vanish him
i dun wish 2 hurt him.... n i will NEVER WISH 2 lose him....
he's juz someone precious n priceless......

always and forever lovin' you;
1:55 AM

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