My Ramblings

im awake now. cudnt get enuf sleep tho. im still stuck over wad happen yest. i'll weep if im reminded of wad happen. haix. woke up n found out derz 5 messages in my inbox. a few frm syla n a few frm arif. yah. arif said,"tanx 4 hurting him". ouh. ur welcum. do u think it dint hurt me a bit by doing dat isit?? think la. i've been loving u since den n u think it dint hurt me. nvm la. i already noe noone can understand me. cant understand my feelings n why i did dix. ppl wud think dat im always in de wrong making de decision. i noe his frens wud think differently abt him. i noe dix wud happen. but im willing 2 accept any criticism wid a willing hart. cox i've prepared on wads gonna happen. so yah. dix will happen soon enuf.


To syla, tanx 4 cuming 2 my rescue. i thot noone understand me n wanted 2 help. now i noe hu still cares n hu doesnt. wadeva it is, tanx again 4 ur offer gerl. i'll approach u weneva i need sumone aites. no worries. im really touched by ur words. tanx a lot.

always and forever lovin' you;
10:39 AM

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