My Ramblings

Just 2 tell u ppl dat me n arif r officially off. we're no longer a couple. i noe dix sounds bad. im hurting myself real bad. im hurt too. trust me. i cant stop weeping 4 now. but i noe i've done him gud by asking 2 let me go. he did wad i asked 4. tanx.
reflecting wad has happen.
before i go into relationship wid arif,kak budd ever mention dat he has different personalities wid me. meaning he n me different thinkings n attitude. our personality crashes. i still remember dat. but den,i go ahead wid de relationship cox i luved him so much. so much dat i even broke he n his ex up. but it was not purposely. not in my intention. i duno how i got hooked over him. n ended up liking him so much. n dix made him guilty whether 2 choose me or zakiah. he chose zakiah. he luved her. being a desperado, i sumhow did smth which made him change his mind. i noe i was a desperate person last time. asked syla. im always telling her dat im guilty 4 breaking em up. yet she says no im not in de wrong. but i still think i am. guess wad kak budd has said came thru. haix. he said zakiah let him go willingly. but den last time he mentioned dat zakiah let him go cox she wanted 2 go back 2 her ex. so which is which?? haix. nvm la. it's de end of us aniwae. i dun wish 2 talk abt dix animore.

To arif, i duno wen u r gonna read dix but jz in case. dix is 4 u.
tanx 4 being der 4 me wen i needed sumone tho at times u were so busy 2 attend 2 me.
but i dun blame u 4 dat. tanx 4 ur love,care n concern.
ur understanding-ness tho it was a bit off key.
i cudnt understand u much n so did u.
we had different personalities. i noe u said u'd change but i wudnt wana force
n dun want ppl sacrifice things too much 4 me.
i noe i've hurt u so much. infact even a million sorry wun cure de hurt in u.
i noe. blame me. blame me if u want 2.
punish me in evry way u can. i'll accept de punishment cox i deserve it.
u were a great company but it went wasted.
tanx 4 all ur precious time 4 me.
i really appreciate dat.
n de reason 4 asking u 2 let me go is cox i dun wish 2 hurt u any further.
i cant do dix.
u're too good 2 me.
all de fake-ness is getting 2 nower.
which den made me 2 decide 2 let u go wid a willing hart
trust me. my hart was in great pain.
i still luv u.
but de otha half me luved him.
i noe i did u wrong.
i hate 2 play timers.
i had 2 let go one.
n i hope i did a right choice.
if i happen 2 not do so,den GOD will show me 2 de right path which is 2 remain single.
if he happens 2 understand me which he already did, den i noe i've chosen de right path.
4 now, i shall remain silent.
n suffer 4 all i care.
i luv my life.
so no worries.
i wun do smth like slashing my wrist over n over again.
but i'll jz weep till i drop okays.
u take care.
hope dat u'll find sumone hu understands ur joke more better den i do.
may u find ur happiness soon.

always and forever lovin' you;
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