My Ramblings

To syla, haha. aku menang.
kao menyerah kalah. sayang kao~ haha.
bile bley jumpe? ntahlah. bile aku keje,kao free.
bile kau keje plak aku free.
so like 2nggu jelah bile duer2 free kays. lol~

im wide awake early. n it's a sunday.
damn~
wanna noe y?
simply cox i cudnt sleep. toss n turn n yet
still i cudnt sleep.
my stomach was aching so badly
maybe i dint had proper meals
n my mind was troubled sumhow.
im sorry if i broke de promise.
i simply cudnt forget abt it.
kept thinking n thinking
4 all i care.
n der was like noone 4 me 2 seek to
noone will ever understand me.
including u.
im disappointing him each n evry now
n den. wad do i do??
im so like stressed out.
wad u said, u'd be happy if u c me
happy. do u think dat i wud believe dat?
i've experienced enuf.
n all of dat happend 2 me yrs ago.
so y do u haf 2 do dix 2me??
im so sad. so guilty conscience.
he has yet 2 noe y.
we're falling apart.
maybe u ppl duno de prons we're
facing simply cox we dun tell rite.
i always think y we dint click on
so well n yet im still der.
i duno wad 2 do.
i duno how 2 say 2 him.
n i noe i'll disappoint him.
veri veri veri much.
n i dun want cox of me he do
such stupid stuffs dat i did b4.
i dun want.
blame me.
i blame myself 4 nt telling de truth
n giving u false hope.
why nad??!!
i cant stand any longer.
but i got no courage 2 tell.
how???
haix.
neither do i blame de otha person.
dun blame urself.
i just think dat im unfair 2 u.
no justice.
it's unfair tho u dint say it.
i can feel it.
why do u sacrifice all dix 4me?
why??
haix.
but im proud 2 say i was veri
happy wid u.
but.......
we'll c how.

yest,went out wid my new frens.
Lina, Apit, Din n dearest Farhan.
now i realise dun judge ppl by
their appearance.
tho some guys r wid tatoos,
dey can be really niice at times.
i mean most of de times la.
take apit 4 example.
he got a tatoo but he's totally
a friendly person.
dat made me realise smth
realy change my perception
of ppl wid tatoos.
bt not all guys wid tatoos good
okays.
n i was so happy walking n
window shopping wid em at
orchard yest.
so niice of em 2 treat me s
their guest.
ahahaha.
all ask me.
whether im tired.
if i m den dey go rest.
aww!! dat is so sweet.
n haix. farhan gave me de look of concern
n care. haiyo. how?
he even held my hand.
put his hand on my shoulder.
knock my head. damn u.
strangle me. dat was a play2 strangle.
he stand so close 2 me.
dat made me so uncomfortable.
he was like gonna kiss me.
oh god~
help me!!!!
wad do i do???
help pls.
n bie, if u happen 2 read dix entry,
sms me n tell me.
im really sorry.
i dint mean 2 do all dox.
let me explain.
but nt thru fon.
i cant talk.
trust me.
bt yet,i doubt u'd trust me now.
haix .........

always and forever lovin' you;
9:33 AM

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