My Ramblings

haiz...
im tiredddd~
seriously tired..
wanted 2 sleep jz now..
laid on my mom's bed n den think of dear.
den i cant get my eyes close readi sia.
serious.
my mind was totally filled wid dear.
it brought in de memories we had
earlier on....
let me recall de past.
dear ask me out on 30th april 05.
dat tym we werent a couple yet kae.
der were his frens too.
introduced 2 me n stuffs..
we sat at de mc cafe near lido.
outside der.
i was feeling veri veri uncomfortable.
hu wudnt rite?!
i dint noe him dat well n
of course a stranger 2 his frens rite.
we talked. we laughed. we joked.
it took most of our time.
den we walk2.
go here,go there.
de same old place.
orchard wad. nothing new bah.
we went 2 play pool.
den afta dat, we go mcdonald.
he treated us ice cream cones.
can la. got 5 ppl including him.
can la lyk dat.
he asked whether i wanted 2 eat
bt i say i dun want.
paiseh leh. haha.
so i went 2 buy de ice cream cox
de frens sort of play2 fite dun want go
buy.. so i mengalah..
i go buy. dey were shocked wen i took
de money on de table.. ahahha.
den dear accompanied me go
buy de ice cream.
action tak tau plak cam ne nak
order ice cream. pe jerrr~
notty. notty.
we ate de ice cream.
n 4 all i noe.
i oways eat ice cream proper okae.
ask syla. cox we dun want
all de mats in de world 2 notice
our selekeh-ness. rite??!!
takkan dpt dear i wanna eat gelojoh
plakkan..
so ate slowly.. n i noe my mouth nt
comot okae.
dear purposely wanna hold my face.
ahaha.. gatal eh euuu!!!
but i loike! bleah~
n b4 dat,
on de wae 2 play pool,
dear hugged me.
sort of hug la.
like put his hand on my shoulder
n hold tightly.
is dat hug or smth else??
but wadeva it is,i was TOTALLY SHOCKED!
i was quiet 4 a moment.
ahahah. kelakar.
think i push his hand away.
if im nt wrng ah.
cox we werent a couple yet leh.
i was uncomfortable.
no choice.
but overall on dat dae,
he was playing de host.
so niice 2 me.
i LOIKE!!
i LOVEE it!!

but wad i want now is not his gifts.
i dun want his presents.
wad i want NOW,
iiiiiiiiiiisssssssss
his time,
his attention,
his voice,
his feelings shown,
his evrything,
practically,
de whole of him,himself.
will i be able 2 get all dat soon??
dat remains
an unanswered qn.
I MISS U DEAR!!!

always and forever lovin' you;
7:27 PM

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