My Ramblings

I took de initiative 2 write my ex a letter. okae. 3 full pages front n back plus 2 pages of lyrics. yes. i did dat. n i did went 2 admiralty b4 i went 2 sch jz 2 slot in de letters in his letterbox. say wad u all wanna say but i did dat in de name of love. i dont care if it troubled me or wadsoever but i jz wana clasrify things 2 him. tell him his mistakes n make him realise how much he mean 2 me. im not asking sympathy from him cos i've learnt sympathy is not a good way 2 earn love from sumone u love so much. i got rid of de sympathy thingie already. i wrote him de letters wid full of his mistakes.. really.. im not faking here.. im telling de truth.. i jz feel dat i express myself better in letters rather den face to face.. yeahh.. so i wrote him de letters lorr.. slot it in his letterbox.. msg him after dat n told him i send de letters in case he dont open his letterbox. hah! ouh yeah.. i did saw de last touch of his house from a far cos his door was open wen i came up 2 take a look at de door unit number jz 2 confirm again. heh! after dat, met darlz at de control station n went 2 sch wid her..

finish accounting lesson. look at my hp n saw one message. thot it was abg but den im was surprised he msged me out of de bloom. hah! i dint expect him 2 msg la..
dix is wad he said:
"Hey.. Let's put it tiz wae, i'm not perfect, bt i'm curious m i tat unique or special???hehe...Dunoe,bt let's b fwens, then when i'm seriously, totally in deeply lov 4 u.. Then.. U noe..."

yes.. dats wad he sent me.. i did replied la.. but den u all can guess wad i wrote lor.. u all noe i still haf feelings 4 him rite.. bt ders still hurt in me.. so like errr.. i dunoe la wad 2 say..
here's wad i replied him:
" Yes i noe. im not perfect too. Im jz tellin u wad i experienced wen wid u n hope u noe wad u're doin. ppl wun realise their mistakes unless sumone else tell em. Yes, u're sumone special 2me. sumone hu has a deep impact on me. a unique sumone 2me. u're in de depth of my hart n still occupy a plce in der. fwens aye? sure."

yes.. dats wad i really replied him. no lies. i jz had 2 tell him de truth so he'll noe evrything dat he did or havent do. it'll benefit him la oso. but now, wad im confuse abt is whether shud i wait fer him or shudnt i??? i need help here. different ppl haf different say n views bt i jz wanna noe ur point of view. dats all. help me out okaes. y im confuse?
firstly, if i wait 4 him.. is it worth it? wud he really change 4 my sake? wud he repeat de past? how much longer do i haf 2 wait? 1 yr? 2 yrs??
secondly, if i nvr wait 4 him.. i got attached 2 sumone else.. den one day he popped up n ask 4 me back. how?? im attached at dat time n he ask me back? wad shud i do? n wen he come back, he changed a lot 4 me. 4 my sake he mended his ways.. so shud i accept him back or 2 continue wid de recent bf??
so im asking u ppl 2 gime ur opinions n views so dat i noe whether wad im doing is de correct thing or de wrong thing. haix...

so yeahh.. i guess dats all abt it.. i better get cracking.. gonna do my project.. die already lahh.. so many things 2do within little time... haiyah..guess i gotta do nomatter wad.. n yes, we're back 2 frens. bt u noe.. fwen fwen.. i'll feel awkward la.. bt den it's better den nothing rite... we'll b frens n get 2 noe each otha better first.. den after dat later den say. hah! he's much more better den sumone... i think i did a better job den sumone hu is in complete ego... oways wid de ego.. at least i manage 2 b fwens wid him back.. not like u.. ppl wanna b frens u dont want.. u hate me n all.. nvm la kae. i wont lose out if u dont wanna b frens wid me.. i had good intentions bt sumone look at it differently. wad can i say den... up 2u2 decide.. it's all in ur hands kae...

always and forever lovin' you;
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