My Ramblings

Life? sick of dix life?? hah!
for de time being i think de song untitled by simple plan jz suit my life fer now..
really.. hah! "n i cant stand de pain... n i cant make it go away... how cud dix happen 2 me... i've made my mistakes... got nowhere 2 run... life goes on...yes, im fading away... im sick of dix life... i jz wanna scream... how cud dix happen 2me... im slipping off de edge.. im hanging by a thread.. i wanna start dix over again.. so i try 2 hold onto a time wen nothing mattered.. n i cant explain wad happened n i cant raise a thing dat i've done.. no, i cant... "
see.. it tallies wid my life now... hah!
but yeahh.. im doiinn fiinnee.. not perfectly fine but a lil bit fine n i noe i can do it s time passes.. i gotta b strong.. told myself i haf 2 b strong n i noe i can.. im strong.. okae.. not so strong lahh wen it gets 2 emotions... bt hu cares.. i noe im growing stronger each day overcoming each n evry obstacles dat passes me.. lols... i admit i still care fer him.. i still love him.. i still miss him... i jz cant seem 2 4get him.. yes i noe it's difficult 2 4get things... it's difficult 2 4get sumone whom u really love.. like wad Ema said.. haix.. really difficult since i was emotionally devoted 2 him n now,we're off.. it's s fast s lightning.. so sudden.. difficult 4 me 2 accept reality bt nomatter wad.. i haf to.. i realise i cant force love.. so.. i guess i gotta wait if we meant 2 b wid each other.. kalau jodoh ade, den we'll b back together again.. if not, err.. i dun wanna say lahhh... de hardest thing i was asked 2 do is 2 4get him.. n i dont think i can do dat.. haix..

took 228 home jz now... den got dix 2 mats.. one applied de eyeliner like wahhhh... like gerl sia.. taufik wannabe i think.. haha.. ugly u noe.. thick sumore.. gerls nvr apply dat much oso lehh.. den another one.. he's like de normal mat la cume muke serious jer... he sat de seat behind me lahh... wen he walking 2 de back dat time, he stared at me.. wahh.. so fierce sia.. den wen he alighted from de bus, he look inside n den waved at me... wah piang! gila mann.. ahahaha... but i look away.. paiseh lehh.. haha.. nevertheless, im single wad... lols.. i can do anything..

if u ask me 2 commit 2 de relationship, im sorry.. i cant... not dat i wanna disappoint u or wad bt i jz need time alone.. b single 4 de moment.. im not yet ready 2 commit another relationship after ending one so suddenly.. my hart still goes 2 him.. so yeah.. boy,we'll b frens first aite.. noe each other better first.. n we'll c how things work.. for now, i jz wanna b alone.. single s can b.. n i wanna c how long i'll b single.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

always and forever lovin' you;
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