My Ramblings

Life...
Good? Not.
i dunoe wad 2 say abt my life lahh.. it's always wad ppl say.. ders ups n downss in life... dats a normal thing in life.. so yeahh.. im trying 2 hold on wid de sadsad stuffs.. which i noe it's like a waste of time poundering over em rite.. bt wad de heck. nobody noes wad if im thinkin abt em or not rite?! it's like only me,myself n i... why cant life jz be perfect?? let love be de special thing like wad everyone wants it 2 be.. not b a hurt thing where evrybody goes saying love hurts.. bt in actual fact, love can b a niice thing.. really.. when it's suppose 2 nice lahh.. haiyah. nvm lahh. hoping 4 things 2 happen when it wun even happen is jz like wishing 4 a star 2 fall from de sky but u noe it wun fall... get wad i mean? if u dont den go figure. i cant b bothered.
miracles happen? can i say NO?? i noe it happen ones. but can it happen more den one time when i want it 2 come true?? can? haix.. im hoping 4 another miracle. my harts partially broken. it need help. n ders only "dat someone" hu can help me. is dat someone willing to?? dat i shall put it as an unanswered qn... prolly later on i'll get de ans. i hope it'll b a good ans. a good news. smth which i want 2 hear off. not wad i dun wanna hear. it'll den break my hart.. haix..

i really felt de pain jz now. i dunoe why. cos.. cos.. cos.. i dont think i wanna reveal it here. sort of private... yars.. so im hurt partially.. i suddenly got de urge 2 tell abg. so i did. sorry if i disturb u since u're werking rite. hah! told him everything bt still it doesnt help change. haix. im still back 2 square one.. i noe abg's trying 2 help me out. he tried 2 make me not 2 think de negative. but yet,i still cant do dat. who wudnt if smth like "that" were 2 happen rite?? but aniwaes, tanx abg 4 helping me out. appreciate it. for now, i think i can confide in abg lahh. since he hasnt got any gf yet. so i can disturb him n den ask advice or smth like dat. which i wun get easily from gerls. but i do haf gfs who understand me reallie well.. esp darlz... u noe hu u r. hehe.. n not forgetting zhiyi.. both of em noes wad im going thru.. yeahh.. darlz noe wad im going thru simply cos she undergoes it too.. so she noes de situation im in. i dun need 2 explain or wadsoever 2 her.. she'll understand widout me explaining. u noe like some ppl,dey need explainations 2 all dox probs n stuffs.. which will make worst.. hah! so i better get sumone hu understands my situation rite.. n yes, i found her. my one n only darlz. haha.. she's shalini. my dearie shalini. hahhaaa... she's just really sweettt lahh.. she bought me ferrero rocher dat time cos i was so sweett.. haha..
sweeettt + sweeettt = even sweettter rite??!!
lols.. okae. lame-ness...
now talking abt zhiyi.. later she say i nvr talk abt her in my blog.. only say abt shalini only.. hahas... basically,u all need 2 understand dat zhiyi is my 2nd scandal.. haha. sha's de 1st one.. n of course my bf is my 1st priority okaes.. in terms of scandal i got 2 larr.. lols.. yeahh. zhiyi's also my dear angel... rite?! she's always de one protecting ppl... make ppl luff n make ppl hapie all de time.. but dix angel of mine,is a bit sensitive. cannot play wid her hart worx.. so yar.. dont phunk wid her heart okaes.. "no..no..no..no.. dont phuck wid her hart".. haha.. still rmbr dat wen all of us sang dat song in de lift after dat incident happen. u all got rmbr not??!! but wadever it is, my dear angel is a niice person okae. dont take advantage of her lahh.. she veri good one. she save us from de c maths test on dat friday.. lols.. tanx ah.. ouh yeah.. congrats 2 u,my dear zhiyi n 2ur bf too kaes.. hope dat both of u will last long. bless both of u wid all de good things in de world. if ur bf bully u, can come 2 me kae. i help u bash him up kae. lols.. *kidding*

Im stress up. arghh!! someone help me pls...

always and forever lovin' you;
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