My Ramblings

Before i start 2 study, i think i better update my entries.
cos i'll b busy muggin laters... lols.

yest nite.
"F" msged me.
dats b4 midnite.
n it was really UNEXPECTED.
really sia..
cos i was messaging sum otha ppl.
dint really expect 4 "F" 2 msg me at dat time.

11.33pm s it is.

F: Camat mlm.. swity droops..

N: Aww.. dats so sweett.. u havent turn in yet?

F: Huh? Don understand tat phrase,turn wat in?

N: Haha.. im imagining how u look like sayin dat.. lols..
wad i meant was u havent sleep yet?

F: Okaex.. Dhnk sugar pie.. Wat bout ya,white cherry.. hehe..

N: wahh.. i got so many names arh.. bt i loikkee! havent slp yet..
been muggin n feeling so stress up..

F: Juz remember ma swity pie face n pray n u could do w/o
probs,me gonna ceep kae, no kiz?

N: haha.. sure thing.. nites dearest.. sweetest dreamx...
muacckss! wers mine in return? lols.

F: Cannot,restriction order.. hehe.. MOoooaucks.....

end of sms fer de nite........

see wad i mean..
darlz understood me.
he has been away fer quite sum time.
leavin me wid all de past.
wen i waited fer him 2 msg, he dint.
bt wen i dint expect one, he did.
but im glad he did lahh.
at least dat shows he still rmbrs me.
he cares? dat i dunoe.
he msged me out of de bloom.
wad is dat supposed 2 mean???
been loonng okae since he last msged me.
i tried 2 forget him.
like wad ppl said.
i tried forgetting de past.
but i jz cudnt bring myself 2 do it.
i dunoe why.
i cant 4get him.
i cant 4get de past i had wid him.
all i cud remember is HIM.
evrything i do,
im always reminded of him.
haiz.
tell me wad i shud do.
im lost in my world.
if i say i dont love u,
den i'll b lying.
if i say i still love u,
dat im unsure of.
but wad i noe, i still love u.
de feeling is still der.
n i dunoe wad 2do.
cud u tell me wad 2do?
it'll b nice if u were 2 cum back.
cum back fer me.
start afresh.
n evrything will b finnee..
i hope so.
it's jz a dream. nth bt a dream.
haizzz.

i think i need 2 clear dix out.
wid u "A".
u shud noe hu u are.
i dont wanna cum in between u n ur gf.
i thot it thru.
it'll b bad if sumthing were 2 happen
between de 2 of u which i dont hope 2 happen.
i dont wanna b de verdict again.
i dont.
so i think.
it's enuf of de miss miss thingie.
i miss u.
u miss me.
i think we shudnt have gone der.
miss s frens okae lah.
bt not more den dat.
here's wad i thot of.
i dont want u 2 hope fer anything.
meaning, dont hope 4 anything la.
u're attached now
n continue 2 b dat way..
i noe i came in between but let's
jz put it dix way.
i came.
s a stranger.
we became frens back.
n not more.
n i told myself.
i dont expect anything frm u.
neither do i expect u 2 cum back 2 me.
i dont.
so let's jz stay s frens.
i jus dont want u 2 haf any positive/negative thots.
dats why i thot of clearing things up.
which i hope u wud understand n not misunderstood
my point of views.
okae?
do comments if u haf any doubts kae.

people, if u think wad im doin is rite or wrong,
jus gime ur comments kae.
at de taggie dat is.
tanx.

always and forever lovin' you;
12:31 PM

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