My Ramblings
Thursday, September 29, 2005
boreedd s usual.
ouh yeahh.
"z-two" called me jus now.
ders z-one n z-two lars.
both frens.
i now z-one since dulu
and got to noe z-two thru z-one.
complicating enuf 4 u?
not fer me.
haha.
okae-okae.
i was watching channel 8 chinese drama
cum anugerah wen z-two called me.
i was shocked lahh.
cos he nvr called me b4.
really.
den like he ask me to call his hp back
since im at home.
called back.
talk to him fer a while.
expected.
z-one was wid z-two.
haha.
frens mahh. close frens indeed.
dey were lepak-ing.
reminds me off how i use to lepak wid de t-birds people.
nyehh.
denn...
we talked lahh.
n z-one some sort like interrupted.
he wanted talk to me.
so z-two passed de fone to him lahh.
he was beiin all mushy.
haha.
he told me my voice n appearance doesnt match.
haha.
really got diff meh?
he say my voice different lah.
so soft lah.
takkan nk jerit pulakk kann.lols.
abt de mushy thingie.
z-one use all de words couples use.
like "baby","sayang","yang" n etc.
hahahahaha.
he talked to me using all dox werds.
n btw,z-one is attached.
to sum gerl named zureen or apentah.
he like ntahlahh.
he used to express his love to me last time.
but my hart jus refuse to open up since farhan left me.
yes,i refuse to love fer de moment.
not prepared to be committed yet again.
i was confused.
im unsure.
n so z-one came.
he like express his love.
bt i dint reply back.
so now, he's attached bt yett
like still fooling ard.
like skejap me,skejap dat gerl.
n it all makes me so confuse.
can u nott make things confuse?
i dont want history to repeat.
i repeat.
i DONT WANT.
enuf of wad had happened a yr back.
i've suffered enuf wid de guilty conscience
which is still within me btw.
unless u leave her by ur own accord.
i dont wanna play a part.
i dont wanna intrude into ur relationship wid her.
i dont.
n now.
z-one n z-two is some sort like fighting over me.
okae.
it's nott smth to be proud off.
i dont like.
sumpah aku tak suke.
dey like fyte-fyte in de backgrd.
of course i can hear rite.
clear cut.
bt i dunoe if it's fer real or bluff2 only lahh.
cos dey frens mahh.
i really dunoe wad to say.
but i sumhow find em fighting funny.
im serious.
i was luffing all de way.
eh waitt.
bedek la kalau all de way.
i have to breathe too.
haha.
nehmind abt datt.
z-one asked me out on de 9th.
it's on a sundae.
buke puase outside wid him n his frens.
anyone wants to accompany me?
cos i dunoe any of his frens except 4 z-two.
de rest i dunoe lehh.
so anyone wanna accompany me go in case im goin???
hahahahaha.
but i dunoe if i shud go.
told him anything.
but shud i?
actualie both asked me out dix saturdae.
haha.
coincidence aye?
butt to de same place.
MOS.
music of sounds.
go clubbing ah.
butt too bad,
i wont b ard in spore bebeh.
im goinn johore to make baju raye.
yeay! yeay!
slamat aku.
if nott how m i gonna find an excuse to tell mummy
if im goin wid em.lols.
goin johore rather saves me all de trouble.
wooohhhott!
im gonna miss de teks lars.
cos im gonna miss dance prac dix saturdae.
hmph.
u people go ahead.
practise till u people drop yeahh.lols.
im supporting u people in johore.haha.
planning.planning.planning.
to go.....................
east coast dix mondae.
i sort of forgot i got work sia.
so maybe joining de teks after work.
definitely joiining u people lars.
no worries aye?korang rot-rot dulu lah okaes.
lepas tu sambut lah kedatangan aku.
kann best gitu.
happiee aku.
haha.
okae enuf nad.
nonsense je bebual.
life aint doiin me any better.
i dunoe wad to say.
im all so confuse.
"evrywer i go i get so confuse.
No, im not too bright to say".
i dunoe if HE still wants me back.
do u, white cherry?
dat i dunoe.
haiyahh.
im always de one anticipating things.
i dont want.
can?
hmm.
im looking forward goin to east coast.
really.
been looking forward to go der.
a place to cool down.
let things go.
shout s loud s i want. hah.
i wish.
anyone wanna join?
haha.
im taking my leave s fer now.
always and forever lovin' you;
10:52 PM
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