My Ramblings
Sunday, September 04, 2005
first i went 2 sch wid dayana cos got make up exam at 1130. s usual. we all star of de carats mann.. all come late.. some even later den us.. 4 a while, we thot we had 2 do make up on dat 'mat' rite dayana?? haha.. bt den onlie on females.. we chose our partners n den do on each otha lor.. i did on dayana n she did on me.. nyeh.. wahh.. i tell yous ah.. my hand all so shaky sia.. sian ah.. hold de brush all.. i scared i do wrong dats why.. bt lucky evrything went on smooth.. okae lahh.. can oso.. dint go 4 dance jz now cos i got my guyfwens performance at zombie dance bar/club. i dunoe de real name exactly lahh.. wadever.. so met de rest at bedok int.. btw, zombie dance bar is located at orchard towers in orchard of course.. dox hu dunoe better go check out.. bt den de place so budget lah.. me n fiza thot it was a grand thing.. like de place all so grand like other clubs.. bt den, haiyah.. dint expect things 2 turn out differently lor.. okae2 lahh.. not too small..
here's de ppl der:
- me.
-fiza
-hadah
-yanah
-kassim
-azhar
-arif
-zam
-yan
-fuad
-hidayat
-zat
-zulhelmi
-zulkifli
-zulhelmi's gf
-two otha gerls
-anotha guy i dunoe de name
yeahh.. so guys r like more den gerls.. ahaha.. wadever la kae..
ouh yeah, de guys performed well jz now.. although der were a lot of groups, u guys did pretty well wid de performance.. ders competition n challenge of course wad.. kater competition per.. so it's very difficult lahh.. understood.. overall, de things dat happen der was funn la.. hang out wid em at de club.. niice atmosphere wid all de way metal songs.. wahh piang! i dun like metal songs i tell yous.. haha.. bt some r niice tho.. woohoo.. enjoyed myself wid their company.. tanx ppl..yes, including u. im hapie 2 see u.. n i dunoe why.. dont ask me why bt im jz telling dat im hapie 2 get 2 c u back after so long. okae. not too long.. n den we managed 2 have a convo. dats a good sign. i took de initiative 2 talk 1st. i mean offer u things. de bread. de sweets. nyehh! i was shy 2 start de convo.. i dunoe if u ever like 2 talk 2 me again.. bt u did open ur mouth 2 talk 2 me. even 4 a while n im glad u did so.. so yeah, im hapie wid u ard too together wid de rest yahh..
haix.. i jz felt different jz now.. i wonder why.. hmmm.. i was feeling sort of moody bt i guess nobody notice dat? yahh? hahaha.. nvm lahh.. im okae wid it.. im really so confuse abt my feelings now.. i dunoe wad im feeling oso.. i dun get how my hart werks nowadays.. why?? im wondering why... n y do i feel different wen he's ard? why? haiyah.. i dunoe why bt i jz felt different lahh.. dont ask me why.... cos i dont haf de ans.. n please, dont tell me im back in love wid him.. pls dont tell me dat.. im not yet prepared 2 accept back all dix.. apatah lagi dier.. hah! im not yet ready 2 commit another relationship dat will hurt in de end.. i jz cant take it animore lahh.. i dont wanna b de victim again.. so yes, im taking it slow here.. n yes, im not yet ready 2 b committed into a relationship wid anyone.. really.. aniwaes, he's already attached too.. according 2 de fwens n he,himself.. hah! so, wad shud i do now? keep my distance? or..............................
i dunoe wad 2 say already. wad i noe, im all so confused n fucked up!
sheesh! i missed de dance thingie at suntec n nizam said der were so many many mats der lahh.. haha.. nvm. zombie dance club oso got mats wad.. can oso lahh.. nyehh!
i hope 2 hang out wid de ppl jz now again. been long since i last lepak-ed wid em sia.. da lamer gile nye.. like so many months long already.... n yes, we drifted apart.. i was like a stranger jz now. bt wen time passes, we got back s per normal. crazy s ever. so ppl, do ask me along if u all wanna go lepak okae.. n yes, dix applies 2 de nyp people n de stage arters too. dont 4get 2 ask me along okae.. woohoott!
always and forever lovin' you;
12:00 AM
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