My Ramblings

im just bored.
2nd entry fer de day.

i now realise ders so many people dat cared fer me.
hah! i noe dats stupiidd not 2 realise it long ago.
i oways think dat nobody did cared abt me.
really.
im like always alone.
all alone.
dont wish to trouble people.
keep things 2 myself.
hmmm...
if dayana dint see my pics in my fon,
de teks wudnt have noe how much i suffered.
guess, dey can feel de pain im feeling. nyehh.
all de "eeewww".
"how cud u do dat?"
"u really do dat arh?"..
haha.. all dox qns aroused wen de teks saw
de pic of my hand being slashed by me,myself n i.
so i told em de looonngg story.
we were by de esplanade.
so yeahh.
dey cudnt believe dat i actually did dat.
2nd or 3rd time already i did dat.
i noe lahh it's stupiidd.
i noe dat long ago.
even wen doiin dat,
i noe it's stupid bt yet i did it.
so it's like no use.

i promised so many people i wont do it again.
will i keep up 2 de promise???
dat i shall see.
cos s far s im concern,
i dont like people 2 make empty promises.
i hate wen people does dat.
so i mite s well keep up mine
so dat people wud keep up theirs.
i hope so lars.

hmmm..
i thank u people fer
de love,care n concern.
tanx to u people i manage to move on in life.
ema, dayana, asz, nisa.
i thank u all many many fer all dox werds.
i'll keep dem in my mind,heartt n soul aye.

darlz u noe hu u r.
in case u dont,
u're my one n only,
Shalini d/o subramani.
nyehh.
i thank god fer letting u be my best fren.
u're de only best fren dat understood me so far.
u're de only one hu noes how i've suffered till now.
i thank u fer cumin into my life.
i appreciate ur presence.

to my dear angel,
wu zhiyi.
no worries.
u oso made a deep impact on my life.
u cheered me up wen i was down.
tanx darlinkk.

to de rest,
michelle, wei lin n de rest.
i thank u all fer all de concern.
im hapie havin all u gerls in my life.

n yes, not forgetting my two best frens.
asilah n hafizah.
tho all 3 of us suffered thru times,
we're still strong together aye?
i thank god fer bringing us back together.
all de times we've spent together,
shall be cherished.
i love u all many many.
tanx fer all de stuffs u've given.

hmmmm.
i have all de love in de world.
be it from my family or gerlfrens.
BUT,
one thing i had to really admit.
i miss having a guy's love.
get wad i mean?
dont be mistaken over dat phrase.
evryone needs a companion.
yesss. dont deny datt.
im a gerl.
so i noe.
i noe how gerls feel okae.
haiyahh.
nvm lahh.

p.s: sumone still owe me smth.
i dont wanna force.
u noe hu u r. n wad u owe me.
been long so wadever la okaes.
i cant b bothered if u're nott bothered.

always and forever lovin' you;
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