My Ramblings
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
i cudnt get enuf sleep 4 de nite cos of wad happen overnite.
Day was screwed & further more screwed by someone's bad-mouthing. argh!
dont talk abt dat already lahh.. im jz glad mummy understood me.
she said if you wanna wear anything jz wear. she wore like "dat" b4 oso..
so yahh... she's perfectly understood.. i need not worry den..
YOU just remind me of de past.
I dunoe y but i just feel awkward chattin wid YOU over msn..
not dat i dont like lah. i nvr say i dont like bt jz dat de awkward-ness is der.
"Do u still have any feelings 4 me? jz curious"..
dat sentence is oways on my mind.
n yet till now, i still dunoe if dat feeling is der.
i really dunoe.
Im not sure.
maybe a lil jz like de way i told YOU.
but it's jz a maybe..
im confused myself.
n i hate to be in dix position.
I found out de truth from YOU
was it a good news or a bad one???
dat im yet 2 find out..
i shant reveal de truth..
u noe, i noe is enuf..
Fate brought n separated us.
will it bring us back together AGAIN?,rmbr?
YOU said: If fate were to bring us back,it will.
But not for now.
I dont expect anything from YOU since u're attached.
I dont want history 2 repeat itself & be accused of stealing
someone else's bf.. n live wid de guilty conscience.
i hated dat feeling & dont wish 2 feel dat way AGAIN.
So dont worry, it will not affect YOU.
Im moving on...
waiting 4 sumone 2 save me out of somewer.
nevertheless, it may not be YOU.
Something kept me wondering...
if YOU still haf feelings 4 me,
y dint YOU fight 4 me fer de last few months?
dats de qn dat popped up yest wen i learnt abt de truth.
i was jz wondering y dint YOU fight fer me over HIM.
wad happened in between??
u love me so much within dat period of time.
i noe dat.
i really noe dat.
but y cudntYOU take de plunge of fighting fer me?
n prove 2 me dat YOU still love me "dat" much.
haix.
guess it's all over fer now.
let em b jz unanswered qns cos i wont even haf
de courage 2 ask u de qn n tell YOU so.
unless, YOU read my entry.
dat one i dunoe.
Fate?
is it really reliable....?
hmmmmmm........
always and forever lovin' you;
8:41 PM
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