My Ramblings

Haiz.
shud i or shudnt i call him instead?
i really dunoe lah.
nanti kalau call, takot disturb him pulak.
dalah his mind is disturbed.
i dun wanna add to dat disturbance of his.
cukup lah i worry abt his well-being.
i mean like i dont wanna affect him any further
wid calling him wen he doesnt wanna talk.
haiz.
i miss him. yes i do.
but wad can be done?
he eventually said he doesnt feel like
talking on de fone.
i cant be like forcing him rite.
i dont want n i dont like.
so i think it's better 4 me to give him time.
time all alone.
tho it hurts me letting him b alone.
i dont like arh.
cos he'll den think n think so much.
no good. simply no good.
haiyahh.
i dunoe wad to do.
tell me wad i shud?
haiz.

i dint go werk today.
nampak sah kan.
if not i wont b blogging here rite?
yes, i dint go to work.
reason?
cos i was too lazy to go werk.
dats why.
verii lazy.
since yest had dance n i slept late.
veri late. was veri tired.
so heck care.
lagipon mummy was on leave.
cos de contractor tingkap want to come
n change de windows thingie.
ntah la ape bende.
mcm2 government suruh tukar.
menyusahkan org. kene kluar duit lagi.
haiyo.

eh, i dint go work oso i nvr slack okae.
i verii good gerl.
rather den letting my mind go berserk.
i'd rather go do housewerk.
at least i'll let my mind concentrate on
housewerk. lebih berfaedah. heh!
so, cleaned de house.
vacuum my room.
mopped my room.
throw de unwanted books.
arranged things properly.
helped mummy wid de other housewerk.
dengs. 4 once, i was hardworking.
nak raye nye pasal kan.
kene lah rajin.
my darling oso veri hardworking tauu.
he nvr go school den he cleaned de whole.
see. rajin kan tuu.
eh, i not laazy tau u.
i pun buat keje rumah okae.
u can do, i oso can do.
so let's do together.

i have so many things to buy.
waiting patiently 4 saturdae.
hehehe!
here's de list.
one baju kebaye.pink one pls.
handbag.
shoes 4 raye.
make up stuffs.

eh. tink dats all 4 now.
de list can go on bt i dont want to.
nk tunggu duit ade jer mcm tunggu ape.
nie pon wait 4 mama's salary.
use her money ferst n den i'll pay her back.
dengs.
wait 4 my salary on de 7th nov baru masok.
by de time da raye sehh.
lucky mama got advance pay.
slamat sket. heh!

baby, i miss u.
i miss u so much.
u noe not?
u dunoe kan?
so let me tell u.
i love u.
i miss u.
i care 4 u.
i worry 4 u.
u mean a lott to me.
n i mean it all.
im serious.
ouh yeah.
i want to meet u.
but dunoe if u want.
anywer. after work dat is.
den we go anywer la.
s long s wid u.
den we go eat together or smth.
okae darling.

always and forever lovin' you;
4:30 PM

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