My Ramblings

i miss loverboi.
i dont care.
i miss him.
you, i miss u. so much many.
two days straight widout ur calls,
haiyo, i dunoe wad to say.
like hell? more den dat ade lahh.
risau gile sehh.
serious.worried like mad i was.
tanye zack,tanye cai,tanye fira,tanye fadhli.
sumer org i tanye.
i dunoe hu to ask already.
sumer kwn2 u kater u takde dgn drg.
abe u pegi mane sehh???
i search 4 u all out n u werent able to b reach.
so i wonder wer u went.

i dunoe if u wud call today.
i just hope u'll call.
please call.
please dear.
im missing u so much here.
n im waiting 4 u to call jer.
bleyy mati lahh gni.
bluek!

i cudnt concentrate much during work.
like seriously lahh.
my mind was away.
not towards work tauuu.
melayang jauh fikirkan u.
ntah mane u dah pegi.
i just hope u were in sch lah.
cos kalau in sch, skola abes kul 5pm.
but den again i dunoe.
i was all worried.
keje mcm termenung sane sni sehh.
asek2 kene tegur dgn org je.
slamat tak kene marah.
stakat org seniors pat sane tanye wads wrong.
anything troubling u or anything.
hah! nmpk sah aku kater takde pape kann.
nak mati ke kalau ckp. dengs.
so i kept day dreaming.
do de updating things pun ader telupe-lupe sehh.
haiz.
stress otakk.
evrything cock upp.
screwed things up.
arghh!

aniwaes, i've learnt a few new things.
da nak berhenti keje baru ajar org bende baru.
dengs lahh.
but den im hapie enuf to learn new stuffs rather den
stick to one je lahh. naik jelak seh buat keje samer.
so yeah. dats basically all.

my mind,hart n soul is still not yet at ease.
im still worrying abt him till i hear his voice.
ape lah i da buat smpkan u tak call?
did i happen to do anything wrong which made
u to not call me dix 2 days?i ade buat salah ke u?
if i happen to do anything wrong,
im sorry. really really sorry.
but please dont do dix to me.
ur silence is killing me.
dont keep me in de dark.
dont avoid me pls if u happen to.
but i hope u're not avoiding me lars.
wad happen?
anything troubling u?
me troubling u?
i hope not.
please. take it s i begging u,
call me. call me. call me.

buke outside just now wid mummy n bro.
at geylang dat is.
tho i wasnt in de mood at all to do so.
haiyahhh.
syla n family was also der bt we dint meet.
ate chicken rice n s usual dint finish.
usual routine mahh.
mummy ate chicken rice too.
bro had chicken cutlet wid rice.
after dat we roamed de bazaar to look 4 bro's
clothes. de baju kurung lahh.
susah sgt nak carik dier punye.
nk mcm nie la,mcm tu lahh. mcm2 lahh.
cerewet sgt.
i was nevertheless bro's fashion designer.
hah!
like really lahh.
he like dunoe how to dress up gitu sehh.
padahal da besar. besar gajah.
search high, low.
tak dpt jugak carik.
he chose de ones yg not so niice.
i dont like. so does mummy.
so settled wid de dunoe-la-wad-de-name.
bt havent buy yett. cumer settled je on it.
layters come again n den baru beli.
n im getting one too.
de PINK kebaye. like dox kebaye nyonya type.
mummy agreed already. cumer tinggal choose n buy je.
byk jgk org lahh tadi. more den last week tho it was
on a weekday.

n to bro,
im so sorry abt de cut on ur right hand.
damnnn.
i dunoe wad i was doing.
he pinched me.
pain tauuu.
den i like want to pinch him back.
so grabbed his right hand bt den he pull his hand off.
den my nails were already on his hand tau.
ape lagi bile dier tarik his hand like my nails go
against his skin kann.
so like his skin sort of ter-peeled off lahh.
eeewww. dat was disgusting okae.
really. geli aku tgk.
im so sorry. i dint mean to do dat.
berdarah seh. bt not to big de cut.
one straight short cut.
nmpk seh isi dier. ewwww.
watery-watery. got a bit blood.
but it's really disgusting.
i noe it's painful bt i dint do it on purpose.
i was goin all sorry2 all de wayy sehh.
sorry tauu bro. kakak tk sengaje.
tho he dint say it hurts,
i noe la it hurts.
i can like feel de pain.
tho it wasnt me havin dat cut.
dengs! btol2 sorry tauu.

haiz. stress. stress. stress.
ape nak jadi nie?
aku buat salah ke?
org2 disane, sape2 jelah,
aku nie jahat ke? jahat sgt ke aku nie?
buruk sgt ke aku? m i so badd?
aku ade buat salah?
haiyoohh.. i seriously dunoe wad i did lahh.
can u just tell me wad i did?

always and forever lovin' you;
9:45 PM

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