My Ramblings

Just reached home from mak's house.
got gathering jus now.
so many people.
me,mummy,bro,abg izad,mak,wak,
abah n family plus nenek n atuk.
byk org kan tu. meja makan tk muat.
resulted to some kene duk pat bawah.
dint noe der wud be so many people.
so heck. i dint even noe nenek n atuk was cumin.
n ouh sheett,
de ferst thing came into my mind wen nenek was cumin
was my pierced nose.
damnn.
wonder if she wud beleter n stuffs like datt.
n my hair colour.
it's so nott fair okae.
de other time adek went to nenek's hse wid blonde hair
she nvr say anithing.
den wen i coloured my hair she nag at me. wahhh.
it's so nott fair.
bt lucky thing she nvr nag jus now.
if not i dunoe wad to say lars.
gathering was okae.
finally a family gathering thingie.
been long since i yearned 4 one.
too bad daddy cudnt make it.
he's werking.
sheessshhh.
nehmind, i'll find one day wer he's nt werking n
we'll go buke together.
i miss daddy so muchh.

bone steaks n mee hoon fer buke.
roti puddings,watermelon(reminds me of loverboi),
canned fruits,keledek fer desserts.
so many foods kann.
tak termakan sehh.
i only ate 2 bone steaks.
one piece of roti pudding.
one bite of watermelon.
n 2 cups of canned fruits.
dats all. nyehh.
de rest i dint touch cos too full areadi.
after dat went to pray.
slack fer a while.
watch tv. catch up wid things. talk.crap.joke.
it was rather fun lars.
time to go home.bro went lepak wid de frens.
mummy n me went home.
so here i am blogging.bored nye pasal,sbab tu lahh.

haiz.
i feel like running away from home.
serious.
tadi otw home,mummy nagged at me.
tak abes2 sehh nag. i dont like.
sape sehh suke org nag2 nie sumer.
she oways nags aniwae.
tepakse drg.
den wen i say smth, she say i menjawab la.
"da besar kan,menjawab je keje kau."
goshh! meaning i got no say lar?
haiyo.
seriously.
i feel like running away.
one day or two.
run far,far away where nobody can find me.
stay away from people.
let me be alone 4 once.
den i'll b able to think.
think deep.
so many probs.
so stress. haiyah..
nobody seems to care.

here mummy nag.
say i nvr do housework.
just now i slept like till afternoon.
tak penah2 tauu.
yest i sleep den 2dae afternoon den i wake up.
hey, i've been having sleepless nites n i wake up early
morning to go work.
cant i just get back my sleep?
it's just fer 2dae kann.
no. dey wudnt let me.
wake me up several times bt heck care.
i jus dont care.
i jus continue to sleep 4 s long s i can.
time to wake up den i wake up.
haiz.
itu pun kene marah.
tidur salah. tak tidur salah.
sumer aku buat salah.
keje rumah tu, sumer org salahkan aku tk buat.
sabar la. org tau lah bile nk buat.
bukan org tk buat sehh.
daddy keep nagging n nagging.
sane sni aku yg salah.
org penat tau tak.
im so stress over so many things.
fikiran sehh.
kire aku jelah srg kene buat keje rumah.
org laen tkde responsibility pe.
haizzz.

fed up tau tak.
noone understand me.
dats de reason why i wanna run away.
run away from home.
i got noone to seek to.
noone to listen to my sorrows.
evrything i settle alone.
so how?
blame me summore lah.
den if i run away one day baru sumer org panic.
i dunoe wad else to say.
i got no say aniwae.
maybe i'll just shut my mouth wenever wid de parents.
if dix is wad dey want den i'll do it.
wen i say smth,dey say i menjawab.
so now i guess i better shut my mouth b4 dey blame me again.
it's like i cannot say anything.
like i dont haf my rights to say anything.
stress kpale otak.
buat nie salah,buat tu salah.
apenye yg btol sehh.
tell me lah.
haiz.

always and forever lovin' you;
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