My Ramblings
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Pagi2 bute dah sedih2 n all.
Below r de "smth" dat happened early in de
wee hours. time org tgh tdo tauuu.
believe it or not.
i was all down wid tears listening to de story of his life.
it was all sad.
he was strong.
he was strong enuf to go thru all dat all by himself.
i wish i cud help.
in any way dat i cud.
tho it wasnt my life he's telling,
i was still soaked wid tears.
i cudnt say much.
i dunoe wad to say.
i cud only say a few words n phrases.
i noe i cudnt help much on de fone.
i just wish i was by his side now.
comforting him.
hugging him tightly.
telling him i'll take care of him nomatter wad.
i cant do dat on de fone.
it's hard. verii hard to show.
i noe it's hard 4 him.
i can feel it sumhow.
de sufferings. de pains.
how i wish i cud help.
my hart was crying out.
crying out 4 him.
i dint noe dat was his life.
de life he's leading.
n he's barely holding onto it.
i just hope he'll hold on.
please hold on.
for my sake.nt 4 anyone else,
bt just 4 my sake.
if ders noone else dat cares 4 u,
ders always me.
im always rite here worrying abt u.
even 4 a single second.
i'll nvr fail to worry abt u.
i care 4 u n i oways do.
believe me.
nomatter wad happens,
i'd still love you.
just noe dat.
im here n i'll oways be here 4u.
im grateful enuf dat u open up.
i just cudnt believe wad i just heard.
u put up a strong front just to make people happy.
u're oways wid ur smile nomatter wadd.
not till now den i noe.
it was all a fake.
i cudnt even figure out dat fakeness till u open up to me.
im sorry.
i cudnt even do de job to figure dat out.
i was hopeless.
forgive me.
i just wish our houses were near.
so dat i cud even go out just to meet u mere.
i want to comfort u.
yes,i do.
but distance doesnt permits us to.
i wish i cud meet u soon.
but yet, i dunoe wen it'll be.
if i cud, i wud want to meet u even now.
bt den again, i cudnt.
distance is always de reason.
but it's okae.
ders always another day,
wer we cud meet n put de sorrows away.
i hope it's soon.
nevermind de weekdays.
im free starting from wednesdays onwards.
if u want, i do want too.
we'll meet sumwer n put all dat sorrows at bay.
listening to u telling me u wanted to cry,
dat just bring abt de tears in my eyes.
i dunoe why.
but i just feel de pain inside.
i oways fail to control each time sumone cries.
it'll b good if we were together wen u tell me all dix.
we'll cry together. dat'll b better.
we'll have each other to comfort n care for.
i noe der was smth wrong.
wen i heard dat voice of urs.
voice of sorrow.
troubled voice.
but u dint noe whether u shud tell me or not.
was it rite?
haiz.
nomatter wad,
just bare dix in mind,
even wen u're left wid noone to care for u,
i'll oways be dat sumone hu's always caring 4 u.
even if u cant accept me doing dat,
i'd still continue nomatter wad u'll say.
ders always dix saying;
dekat dihati, jauh dimata.
ur hart will oways be near mine.
rmbr u gave ur hart to me?
n i'd still refuse to give it back to u.
rmbr dat on de tagboard?
our harts will oways be near
but just dat we're distance apart in view
cos of wer we're staying.
west coast. bedok. two places far apart.
haiz.
im always loving u.
it deepens n continues.
we can share2 sdare.cousins.
wadever u want to share wid me
im willing to share wid u.
more den willing.
share cousins. get love.
can. all can.
i can share all dat.
promise me u’ll continue living.
dont just give up.
dont give up things so easily.
i noe it’s difficult 4 u.
i noe. n i understand.
but u gotta move on.
Okaes darling?
Im always here for u dear.
nomatter wad.
Remember datt.
always and forever lovin' you;
3:03 AM
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