My Ramblings

reached home ard 1145pm.
had dance la ape lagi kann.
terok seh kite kene.
all de vulgar werds kluar sehh.
but nisa's grp kene rabak.
paling terok lahh.
kene maki sumer.
i think "his" fav word is fuck.
hahahhahaha.
like really.
he use dat word s often s he can lars.
sumer kene torture like mad.
evryone was all stress up.
imagine lah.
sumone teach u new dance steps.
den it's complicating.
u take time to like really get de steps
in ur mind.
master de steps.
n show dat u can do it.
den like suddenly,
dat sumone change de steps again.
tak binget ke gitu?
not angry arh?
hah!
de steps r already complicating
n he's changing it over n over again.
havent master de old one
n now he's changing into another one.
more chim-er steps.
like dix it wont end sia.
dunoe wen oso dix thing will end.
we're not even closer to de chorus part.
n i dunoe even if we're still gonna take part
in dat performance on de 30th of nov.
haiz.
evrybody was all pissed off.
sherry cried.jocelyn fed up.de rest were
sort of feeling de same too.
nisa pon fed up sehh.
heh!
so we were like some sort bitch-ing abt him.
of course wen he's not der lahh.
haiyo.
we'll c wad will happen on saturdae kae.
bt den again, i dont feel like going on saturdae arh.

mama's picking up de kuihs on saturdae.
supposed to teman-ed her bt den
i got dance.
see how lah layters.
ders still a few days to go.

aniwaes, i cudnt sleep well in de morning.
put down fone. update de blog.
tried to sleep ard 310am.
but den i just cudnt arh.
keep thinking abt baby.
how he's doiin. how he's coping wid things.
whether or not he's alright.
all dox qns kept crossing my mind.
tak tenteram arh my mind.
so dats why i cudnt sleep.
till like sahur?
sahur pon sket je.
no mood.
after sahur, tried to sleep.
but oso cannot. haiyahh.
den i think i sleep a few minutes.
den haf to wake up to go werk already.
result from lacking of sleep
made me lazy.
cos tired rite.
so i was like telling mummy i'll go late.
inform my supervisor 4 me. thanks.
hahahahahha.
yeah. dats wad i did.
was telling mummy dat i'll wake up at 8 gitu.
but den actualie i wake up at 9.
itu pun badan mcm lemah2 sehh.
verii weak. bt haf to go work lars.
cannot lazy2 already. too much.

reached work.
i thot i'll kena scolded or smth.
but den kannn.
dey some sort like thankful i came lahh.
mcm berterima kasih g2.
slamat tk kene marah.
expect to get a warning ke ape.
tapi satu bende pun tkde sehh.
syukur alhamdulillah.
one aunty say,
"thanks adek 4 cumin. i thot u nvr come today.
thanks a lot arh."
wahhh. i think she said a lot of thanks to me today lahh.
cos eventually, i was helping her wid her stuffs.
dats de reason why.
if i nvr come den her work will not be lessen lah.
s simple s datt.
so good enuf i come.
tak kene marah. tapi dpt praises lagi ade.

ouh yeah.
tell u people wadd.
i got so many names at work.
simply cos de cino-nes dunoe how to pronounce my name.
nanti ade sebot smth2 lahh. i shant mention wad dey call me.
nanti ade je org kacau aku plak dgn name2 tu sumer. heh!
maen sembarang hembus je.
jgn la mcm2 seyy. name aku sdap2 ditukar kan jadi name yg tk sdap.
ape dahhh.
let me name a few.
adek. sayang. miss. pssst.(haha).
miss in chinese(i dunoe how to write it out in chinese lahh).
n de list goes on n on. haha.
werk was overall okae.
can concentrate a bit.
better den yesterdae.
but still not good. nyehh.
last day will b on mondae den.
slamats la yg laen ehk.
aku brambos dulu.
bluek!

i miss u, baby!
i doubt u'll call.
bt if u happen to call,
den im grateful enuf.
syukur padanya.
heh.

always and forever lovin' you;
1:22 AM

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