My Ramblings

wad happen yest?
hahaha.
im happy but not too happy just yett.
i dont wanna b happy just yet okae.
dix one i choose.
remember de expect de unexpected?
i dont want it to repeat again.
history repeating = sarks.
hahahaha. lols.

so dix is wad happen yest.
i thot i cudnt meet zul yest.
den ard 1pm zack told me meet em ard 330 at west coast.
wahhh.. kenelah aku travel jaoh2 jus to meet him.
to think, dat he's cruel? nolahh..
dont jump to conclusions.
his frens oso have so takkan he wana ask em come down
bedok jus to meet me kan.
dat one not fair lars.
so i had to go west coast to meet em.
zack guided me wen i reach clementi.
slamat tak sesat.
sumpah aku tak tau tu tempat.
ahhahaah.
first time i go clementi in my whole 17 yrs.
trust me.

lucky thing i got off de correct bus stop.
onlie dat zack came late
so i thot i was lost fer a while.
de moment zack came,
he started off smiling at me.
ahhaa.
tak kene gaye aku.
serious.
we havent met b4 so i was like keeping quiet
thruout de walking to de other busstop wer de
rest were.
zul was late. haha.
funny la he.
he was de last one lah. abe sume bising2.

he came.
white t-shirt.
jeans.
cap.
badan punye la kurus.
hahaha.

we took bus 30.
to where?
geylang.
dengs btol.
i shud haf met em at geylang sehh.
ahhaha.
but i guess all he wanted was to seat next
to me in de bus?
berkepit la tu makne nye kan.
ahhahaha.
we listened to e ipod.
org suroh dier pilih lagu tanak.
action sehh.
both of us mcm malu2 g2.
really.
we dint talk much in de bus.
ntah asl.
maybe baru2 kenal so like both veii de malu.

reached geylang.
lucky dey dint go s-11 seh tuk buke.
haha. lucky lucky.
we went buke at de kedai mkn near bengawan solo.
6 of us had mee goreng.
den 2 of de gerls had nasi grg.
one had mee kuah.

eh, lupe plak nak intro satu2 ehk.
ahahah. lols.
der were:
zul aka casper.
chucky. i find dat name common.
cai. full version luncai.
zack chino.
rhino.
boi.
fira.
silah.
n me.
all together nine people okae.
i so veri de paiseh cos i dunoe em at all.
i only noe zul n zack.
de rest sumer yest baru kenal.
n believe me,
i was all quiet okae.
haha.
even zul said dat.
his frens commented dat i was pendiam.
ah iye. aku pendiam.
im nott pendiam nor pengecoh(sp?)
jus dat im new to dem n ders like nth we
cud talk abt fer de time being.
n dey force me to talk.
i was too quiet. ahaha.
n was made s an example.
of being de quiet one dat is. nyehh.

after mkn session,
we all go walk walk lor.
s usual geylang was packed wid people.
org tolak sane sni.
n zul was luffing at me cos i was being pushed ard.
serious seh.
org yg besar2 sumer tolak2 aku.
u noe e place yg under de shelter one,
der a lot of people kan.
situlah tempat sasaran aku kene jadik victim org2 besar nie.
kekeke.
kesian aku.
he was walking behind me of course.
protecting me from behind.
auwww.
dat is so sweett.
i lurp u okae. hhaha.
nyeh.
da lamer i nvr feel dat way. lols.
if he dint stand behind me,
aku rase aku da lamer jatoh seh kene tolakk.
hahahaha.

n den comes de ehem ehem part.
i was expecting it to come lah.
i dunoe why.
each time a guy tries to hold my hand,
i can sense it before hand.
get wad i mean?
yeahhh.
he held my hand.
time wen we wanted to cross de road.
wad m i suppose to do?
takkan nk lepas kan balek kan.
nanti ape plak org kater.
but for sure,
i felt de comfort he's giving.
i've been single all along.
okae. not veri long.
one month plus is nth to some people
who has been single fer more den dat kan.
so i cant say much.
bt wad i wanna say is dat,
im touched by wad he had done fer me.
de comfort i've been lagging since farhan left.
im slowly getting it back from zul.
n i wish fer it to continue fer s long s
it can.
okae? okae u?

den den den.
we headed to esplanade.
supposedly to chill at esplanade bt den time doesnt
permits arh.
bt de time we reach city hall it's already ard 1030?1040?
so we jus chilled near de esplanade. nt veri far tho.
near de bridge thingie.
he wanted to try jumping off dat rock to de ground.
it's a no,no okae dear.
reason being for funn.
yelah tu. for fun eh.
kalau kaki patah tak raye lah u.
kesian i tauu. haha.
all of us jus chatted der.
luff. joked. talked.
i had so much fun hanging ard wid dem lars.
a bunch of jokes.
suke nah bully pompan.
kesian fira asek2 kene kacau.
eh, gerls backing gerls tauu..
once i was kacau-ed by de guys n den
fira went on backing me.
haha. padahal baru kenal ehk.
i was surprised tho. thanks.
bla.bla.bla.
we left de place ard 1130 like dat.
late rite?
tak penah aku balek mlm2 bute gni.
hahahaha.
evryone headed separate ways.
yeah i noe.
he dint send me home.
understood.
his was de last train.
camne dier nk balek nanti after send me home kan.
lols.
im reasonable enuf okae.
depending on de situations okae.
nyehh.
overall, i had fun wid dem.
niice people. dey were veri friendly 2wards me.
blaja-ed me sumore tauu.

p.s: u, let me tell u why i dint let u do all dox things dat u do.
things dat u wanted to do or already done n wants to continue.
im nt controlling u but jus dat ntahlah. let's put it s i sayang u kae
dats why i forbid u to do all datt.
one. i did forbid u to not drink. i dunoe if dix can stand long lahh.
i told u i dont like u to drink kan. so i hope u wont. try okae baby.
two. quitting sch. malas is not de reason baby. wad u gonna do after
quitting sch. work? age u brape b? wads ur future gonna b like?think.
three. find other gerls. scandaling.timer-ing. i dont wanna lose someone
dear to me AGAIN. dat one i dont want. i dont want to lose u to another
gerl. yes, im selfish. i lokek. it's all cos i love u. i dont want u to leave.
four. u're sick n yet malas nk beli ubat. camne nk baik nie.
jgn la malas-malas. if u're sick, im worried. yes, i am. i oways am.
dont b malas okae. mkn ubat n den u'll recover soon.
five? haha. not just yet. nie je dier tak leh tahan ape lagi nak continue kan.
lols. think i stop heres aite.
ciao-ing.

always and forever lovin' you;
5:13 PM

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