My Ramblings
Saturday, November 12, 2005
was held up wen i started to haf a chat wid syla
on de fone.
den tros mummy called n say go n siap2.
cos gonna take kak ramlah at airport.
she reached ard 1 plus in de morning frm australia.
came back cos my uncle passed away.
so, me, kak nana,nadhir, dyna, mummy n pakngah.
sambil menunggu tu, kite bdk2 g bk g beli makanan.
sumer tgh lapar padahal da pagi2 bute sey lapar.
hahaha. lols.
kak ramlah reached already den pak ngah send me n
mummy home. dey go mak long's hse to stay der.
wednesdae.
went jalan raye wid budak2 west coast.
round-round pat area west coast sane.
best jgk la jalan ngn drg kan.
most of us were in pink.
pink tauu. fav colour aku. hehehe.
n yes, finally i get to see casper nye rumah.
haha. lucky jgk kan dpt tgk cos me n syla
were sort of late wen we meet dem.
drg da jln raye dulu.
thursdae.
went to school.
started at 310pm.
ended at 830pm sehh..
lambat kan.
such a drag day.
fridae.
kluar lagik dgn budak2 west coast.
dix time round dey come bedok.
come my house.
but not fun la. not all came.
casper,zack, silah n rhino's gf dint join us.
so lesser people. nt exciting. lols.
dey reached my hse ard 4pm like dat.
den mom send bro to airport n
dad went off to work at 430pm.
after dat we haf de house to ourselves la.
ape lagik kan. hooray2 lah kite nie.
tgk vcd. maen game ps2. de guys je.
den de gerls went inside my mom's rm
to use laptop n ders de aircon.
dats why we settled in der. haha.
bdk2 laki kat my living rm punye la kecoh.
riuh rendah sey rumah aku. haha.
but veri veri fun.
been long since i had so much fun wid my frens.
dey slack at my house sumore.
grateful la dey slack here.
cos tak penah2 kwn2 aku slack at my hse during
raye nye period sey.
dey were here from 4 till like 8pm sia.
lamer kan tu. best tau..
we really slacked.
drg dgn bantal sume. pillows all over.
baring sane sni.
takpelah. bukan slalu drg dtg uma aku sey.
but too bad casper wasnt der.
he dint join us. so sad kan?
told syla how happie i'll b if casper was at my house.
tgh slack2 lagik sey.
cam biase. chuck kene kacau ngn syla.
hahahahaha. best tau kacau drg.
kalau drg jadik couple pon cantek lah. lols.
saturdae.
jalan raye wid budak2 sec sch pulak.
yan,zam,arif,azhar,dzul,yanah, yanah's bf,
me,fiza,silah n abg fadhil.
tak byk yg pegi cos sumer dgn reason sendiri2 lah ehk.
went to a few houses.
rumah cikgu haryati dpt jugak pegi.
punye la jaoh seh kitorg kene jalan. ishhh.
gendengs btol.
last house was mine.
den tros kite g chill ard my area.
ciao dlm kol 11pm gitu.
ouh yeah.
aniwae, farhan came my house tadik.
yest he called me asking whether he can come or nt.
takkan tk bley pulak kan.
of course can.
lucky mummy dint work today.
dpt jugak he see my mom face to face. ehhehe.
nk sgt tgk kan. penah bebual pat fone bt nvr see face to face b4.
ahhahaha.
he came wid his frens.
hati tk tenteram sey bile drg sampai.
i feel uneasy.
n i dunoe why.
asal arh?
den sumore i dunoe wad to talk abt.
like no qns to ask gitu sey.
haiyo. i so veri paiseh leh.
been long since i last met him wad.
jadik cam paiseh2 gitu lahh. lols.
but i was hapie to see him after such a long time.
okae. long tu tk long sgt.
2 mths plus? nk msk 3 mths i nvr see him.
hahaha. no change physically.
bt attitude i dunoe arh.
den noe wad?
he msged me.
let me post wad he said to me kae.
him: ehk.. hehe.. why? kite too hot ehk nk angkat gmbr?
hehe. maybe nxt tym aite,anw,ya look gorgeous! so d attractive.
so,bler nk bermatair? single n available tak?
him: ehk.. why? waiting 4 sombody ehk?who?then,tat guy still in ya heart tak?
dier ade chance ehk?
him: sape? beh kite takde chance arh? hehe.
him: mcm dier nk je kite, kite saper kan. hehe. syg rindu jgk dier ehk.
him: ehk.. kalo skg kite sound patch up amcm?
--------------end of sms---------------
haiz. i dunoe wad to say.
i dunoe wads my next step.
im jus confused.
serious la. i need sumone to talk to
but dunoe talk to hu.
i need opinions.
i dont want history to b repeated n
me getting hurt over n over again.
sumpah aku serik.
dats why like i dunoe if i shud commit anymore.
it hurts having to accept de fact sumone u love
asking u to leave him. haiz.
n noeing he likes sumone else.
better off dead kan? aiyo.
camne nie?
skrg he asked me patch up.
so wad do i do now? help pls.
can i just b happie? even 4 once?
dont repeat wad u've did to me earlier.
i just dont wanna encounter dat anymore.
i had enuf. i dont wish to. haiz.
im still confused over things.
byk sgt lelaki nie.
alamak... bukan nk show off lah.
but im just confused.
i dunoe hu really love me.
i dunoe hu need me.
i dunoe a lot of things.
i just want de truth.
i dont want fakeness.
"A" was like showing me he still haf feelings 4 me.
i noe myself. even de rest said so.
"F" sound me patch up back.
i dunoe wad to give s an ans.
"Z" lost like dat. i dunoe wer he go.
i trust u wid all my hart. bt dunoe lah ehk.
i dgr2 dari mulot org nie sume.
things i dont wish to hear. all reach me.
so i got no comments. im sticking to myself.
u like 50-50. want me or dont want.
if u want her, den go ahead.
i wont stop u. i'll give u my blessings.
BUT dont give me hopes can?
pls la. dont give me hopes.
i hate it wen ppl give me hopes n
all de hopes r fake ones.
haiz.
n pls, im not making any trouble here okae.
dont just say,
nad ehk buat hal.
nad dix. nad dat.
pls lah. saket sey hati dgr gitu.
kire nie aku lah yg salah. aku je yg buat hal pe.
im always de one hu's creating trouble n all.
jgn sembarang tudoh la kalau tk tau cite.
paham?
always and forever lovin' you;
11:39 PM
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