My Ramblings

orchard OUTING.
wid de west coasters.
hahaha.
adek bradek roller coaster jgk la tu.
okay. lame.

lunchtime dance performance was okay i guess.
yellow plus green costumes. niice.
we did pretty okay 4 de ferst performance.
dats wad de seniors said la.
jus dat de ferst part cocked up a bit.
but i doubt people will c la cos ders nt much diff anyway.
so overall, things went smooth.
finished at ard 2pm like dat.
after dat went toa payoh to meet syla.

reached town ard 3 like dat.
syla n me walk n walk.
den da tak tau nk pegi.
so we settled at de near by old chang kee.
not to eat bt jus to drink water.
chuck msged syla sayin dat dey'll reach ard 4 plus.
so we had to like talk n crap n talk n crap 4 nearly 2 hrs.
hahahahahah.
penat seh mulot nk bebual.
n at one point of time, duer2 tersenyap.
da penat sgt bebual.
dgr ipod n both went quiet.
emo la tu.
hahaha.
the loneliness.
bun it (remix).
n sum of de other songs remind us of dem.
kan syla? lols.
while waiting, ders dix couple wid a kid.
a son dat is.
he was so cute.
like one yr old kid like dat.
n wen de parents wanted to walk of,
de kid like stop infront of me n syla.
ouh yeah.
btw, it's a malay couple.
n de father is so freaking young.
wife nampak tuer sehh.
husband like mat2.
imagine k.
kid stopped in front of us.
looked at me, walked towards us n hold syla's hand.
n he stood veri near to me.
hold my hand next.
cute gile sehh bdk tu.
smth.smth.smth.
den de father apologise 4 de son la.
but we dont mind.
bdk kecik je pe.
bukan nye bpk budak yg kacau kite.
if only de father wasnt s young s he looks,
syla n me wud haf played ard wid de son.
lols.

tunggu punye tunggu.
abg2 kite blom smp2 jgk.
haiyo.
drg soh tunggu pat somerset mrt.
while walking, we were approached by a few people.
donations a few.
den got dix modelling thing.
got dix guy approached us saying abt modelling stuffs.
but i cudnt hear much cos i was alreadi walking abt from syla.
malas seh nk dgr nie bende sume.
dunoe why.
kite ape lagi, angkat kaki jln arh. haha.
lps jln sket je, ade lagi satu mat approached kite.
haiyo.
selling perfumes.
wahhh.
mule2 dtg je nk step salam seh.
at ferst he hulur tgn pat syla, but she buat bdh.
abe dier hulur tgn lagi.
mati2 nk salam kitorg seh.
gatal nk mampos.
syla salam so i did too la.
bebual3. at last kitorg tk beli.
donated 2 dollars each je.
itupon after de person talk so much.
kesian gitu.
bt dunoe whether it's really 4 donation or nt la.
i tell u arh.
wen u c a malay guy asking 4 donation,
abe forehead ade tattoo. a small one.
n de hair is dyed, tak tergerak hati ke like he's faking?
ntahlah. wad we noe kite ikhlas bagi.
yg laen tu terpulang pade org tu.
kalau dier bohong, dier yg tanggong seh.
den apprached by a few so called ah bengs asking 4 donations.
tak dilayan. it's okay. no thanks is all we said to dem. lols.

talking abt modelling,
i still remember dat time wen i went out wid sha.
we were at orchard mrt station wen a lady approached us.
asking abt modelling too.
she said her company, dunoe wads de name, needs new faces
n wanted us to join in.
she showed us de company's cert too.
den sha looked at me, i looked at her.
hahahahaha.
both dunoe. both confused.
both dont want to wear bikinis n revealing clothes.
lols.
so we asked de lady whether we had to wear such stuffs.
den de lady said no need.
so we thot 4 a moment, think deep.
ans was still a no.
we werent ready la.
bt den wen we walked away, we like regretted nt accepting
de offer which comes once in a life time seh.
we get paid, den use our face.
haiyo.
sucha waste. but nehmind.

jaoh gitu aku melompat ehk.
aniwaes, orchard's outing was funn lars.
syla dpt jumpe chuck n i get to meet my DADDY.
hehehehehe.
sape tk hapie seh.
i dare to say this.
see-ing YOU today really made my day.
i wasnt myself 4 de past few days.
i wasnt really hapie.
if i was, it was only faking.
i dunoe wads wrng wid me.
hais.
but meeting u, seeing u, really makes me hapie.
sumpah.
dat was de reason why i was smiling all de way
wen i kept looking at u.
wen u were looking away, i grabbed ever chance
to look at u nomatter wad.
n i stopped looking wen u noticed me looking.
nanti ade je u kater, "ape tgk2. ade hutang duit ke?".
hahahahhaha.
im missing u now again.
serious la.
u really make me smile all de way.
dgn u punye tk tau diam.
duduk pon nk kene goyang2.
dance sane sni.
dox little quarrels.
fake merajok-ness but u still
pujoked me anyway.
dat smile.
dat laughter.
dox eyes.
it all sums up to make me happie today.
jus 4 today i guess.
kalau la i dpt jumpe u hari2,
guess i'll b hapie evryday den.
but i doubt so.
hais. takpelah.

you,
pls keep ur "sukati u lah" away.
pls u.
i tak suke dgr arh dat phrase.
reason why.
wenever u say dat phrase,
i feel like s tho u cant b bothered abt me anymore.
like heck care.
like,"kau-punye-psl-la" nye attitude.
n den i'll b sad lor.
like hurting kan gitu.
mcm da tak kuase nk layan lagik.
dats why i dont like u to say dat.
okay d?

stress.
rumah stress.
skola stress.
projects given all over at one go.
hais.
ape yg tk stress nie?
tell me can?
asal kan pat rumah je, kene nag la.
baut keje uma sket kene nag.
balek lmbt sket kene nag.
i noe la u all love me.
still love me.
n time n again, dix sentence will b repeated.
"nie mama ngn ayah maseh sygkan kakak.
sbab tu kite amek berat tentang kakak."
it's been repeating tauu.
hais.
wen will i ever get my freedom?
im turning 18 soon.
21?
dats too late sia.
haiyo.

dont compare me wid other gerls.
just dont.
i dont like it.
never will i.
dont ever compare me wid de gerls dat u people see.
parents kept saying n comparing.
n aderlah org2 yg compare2 jgk bende nie sume.
im NOT wild.
not even sia.
i NEVER drink alcohol.
i NEVER smoke tho i honestly say dat i tried b4 once.
i NEVER club.
i DONT go ard maki-ing people.
i NEVER did become gatal n all so hyper wen guys r ard.
dats so not true.
i NEVER take drugs.
see.
i never did all dox okay.
so dont compare me.
i dont dispise people who do all dox cos my bf does some
of de points mentioned.
so no worries.
i nvr hate people. no enemies.
just dat i dont like to b compared to outside gerls.
who r MUCH MORE wilder den me.
dont jus compare me la.
i've said dat a few times bt people r still comparing.
tk paham english ngn mlayu ke?
nk bebual bahase pe? tamil?
hais.

always and forever lovin' you;
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