My Ramblings

sort off jus got home.
erm.. few mints plus minus gitu.

so here's wad i bought jus now.
-de slip on shoes. de cute ones. haha.
-necklace.

thot of buying shirts but den all not so niice.
change of mind.
so next time den i go get shirts lor.
de skirt at 77th street is so tempting.
i dun care. im gonna get it by tomoro.
gonna shop again tml wid syla.
weeee~
mcm org kaye sehh asek2 shopping nie sume.
padahal padahal.
nie sume hanye sementara.
once duit abes, cukop la tu shopping ye. lols.

fiza beli bag sling like mine.
plus byk cekik-an. according to her.
brownies from mrs fields n cheesestick from beard papa.
duer-duer tk dpt beli baju sehh.
she wanted to find baju n belt n bag.
bag accomplished. baju n belt cudnt find.

so had fun wid fiza jgk tadik.
since been long kite kluar g shopping sesamer.
maklomlah duer-duer da busy dgn skola masing2 kan.
lols.
den kite imagine yg bukan2 lahh.
mrapek la kite. biase jgk. kite pe. tk laen tk bukan kite.
kalau tk paham, pahamkan jek.
we walked in front of paragon.
thinkin it's oways de place for rich people.
it has oways been like dat wadd.
org2 kaye je gi situ.
cos people like us,
takde faedah pegi situ kalau tk shop.
kalau stakat nk act mcm org kaye,
buang mase je. baik tkyah kan. lols.
imagine keje pat valentino la.
pat LV. Saint lauren. haha.
klakar seh. duer-duer da mrapek.
bobal smangat.
we cant simply resist de temptations to
bobal smangat la.
dgn gile2 kite sumer. haiyo.
tk bley angkat sehhh.
hahahahahahhaha.

kepale otak nie stress sehh.
mummy nag nag n nag.
aiyo. sot seh otak.
camne tk binget seh.
itu ini tak kene. sumer salah.
balek lmbt salah. balek siang bising jgk.
camne nie.
wad m i suppose to do?
cant u jus understand wad i need n want
b4 cumin to unintended conclusions which
will eventually hurt me in de end wid ur words?
cant you just understand?
hais.
wad my sayang said correct la.
kalau mak2 tak bising tu namenye bukan mak.
but den, de bising is like irritating me.
fed up dibuatnye.
kadang i cant b bothered to say anything.
iye kan jer.
cos i noe if i ans back,
she wont get peace.
nanti ade je she say i kurang ajar la.
menjawab la. hais.
sot.sot.sot.

at times her words do hurt me.
"asal kau tk balek smp pagi skali"
"knape kau tk bwk baju2 kau skali"
"kalau kau tk balek skrg jgk kau duduk pat umah.
puas hati jgn balek. kau igt uma nie hotel ehk.
suke hati nk balek siang atau mlm ikot timing kau"
hais. dox words. dox sentences.
i shant 4get.
cos once hurt, de pain oways remains.
lagi2 she's my mom. hais.
yes im complaining.
so?
cant i? i haf my rights too.
im human. just like u people.
i haf feelings to.
so why cant people jus understand how i feel?
isit so difficult?

dix is wad i've told syla.
de other time wen i wasnt in a good condition.
negatively thinking.
i told her if i was a chinese,
i wud haf gone drinking alreadi.
drink till i go berserk.
drunk. mabok nk mampos.
drink till i drop.
drop dead lagik bgs seh.
den i fed up alreadi.
i say, mati la bgs la.
tak menyusahkan org.
tk dikecewakan.
i was so depressed de other time.
think wad u all want.
but i haf my own feelings.
i haf my own way of thinkin.
try to be in my shoes n
den understand my situation.
i wont go 4 drinkin.
cos i noe i cant.
i was just saying IF I WAS A CHINESE.
dats all.
n of course im not la.

always and forever lovin' you;
11:57 PM

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