My Ramblings

Congrats to bro!
he achieved gud results which shall make
de whole entire family proud of him.
nyeh!
fyi, he got 9 points for his best 3 subjects.
okaylah tu kan.
gud alreadi lah.
he was given 40 choices of courses from all de ites i think.
shud be all lah.
dats wad i heard from him anyway.
so he's now cracking his brain jus like de way i was 4 de past
few mths wen choosing poly n courses.
now his turn to choose which course n which ite to go to.
he's been pestering me to ask dearie which electronic course he's in.
i shall do it layters.
i think.

went home early today.
simple cos ders 4 hours break n de rest decided to cabot java tutorial.
takkan nk pegi srg kan.
so i decided to follow dem.
went home straight.
i thot of meeting dearie but it's still too early.
prolly he's still asleep.
so i dint dare to bother him lor.
if i can i want to meet him evry single day sia.
IF...............
i swear.
dats my side lah.
i dunoe if he wants to meet me or not.
u got miss me not?
miss me rite?
haha.
perasan.
i really wanted to meet him jus now.
but guess i dint have de courage to call him up
and ask him to meet me.
hais.

so i was at home 4 partly de whole day.
doing wad?
catching up on my sleepless nites.
but yet again i cudnt sleep much lah.
my mind was still troubled.
think. think. think.
dats all i did de whole day.
i cudnt sit still.
s if ders smth on de chair dats poking me to get my
butt off dat chair.
but der wasnt anything la of course.
i went to de kitchen.
went to my room.
watch teevee.
played wid my hp.
but nothing seems to attract my attention.
hais.

eat?
i feel hungry but i dont haf de mood to eat.
i dunoe why.
stomach been making a lot of noise
but heck care.
i dont bother.
i noe im strong.
i wish.

im so desperately wanting to talk to u.
hah!
emphasizing on de word DESPERATELY.
okay.
not too desperate lah.
but jus get de point i want to meet u.
and spend time wid u, ALONE.
jus de two of us.
im miss u so much alreadi.
will we meet?
i wonder.

ders econs ica(test) tml.
haiyo.
s quoted by michelle,
our dear adrian targetted too high 4 us alreadi.
he set a grade B for all of us which we think it's
unachieveable.
too high 4 de ferst test okay.
i dunoe if i can make it or not.
mind not der remember?
hais.

i WANT to DIE.

CAN?

yes, im jealous.
im de type dat gets easily jealous.
but u wont noe whether im jealous or not.
u cannot see thru my expressions.
i oways keep my jealousy.
noone will noe unless i let it out myself.
dats me.
accept me or leave me.
dats up to u people.
im a sensitive person.
dat i noe so well.
syla is a veri strong gerl.
she can hold back her tears wen smth sad happens.
but i cant.
depending on wad kind of situation.
bt she's really a strong gerl lah.
dat i can say.

always and forever lovin' you;
10:23 PM

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