My Ramblings
Saturday, December 17, 2005
unfortunately, i wasnt woken by de vibration of de hp.
naseb,naseb.
ape tidak.
he msged me at ard 650am okay.
dat early n it's a saturdae morning lagik.
he msg me dix.
nth so impt,nth so secret to hide.
Rain drizzling at siang hari,
wind blowing breaking the sepi,
this is a wish specially from me,
gd morning n enjoy ur hari...!
Sowie, me dah angon, terase nk msg ma darling.
hah!
his malay n english r all jumbled upp.
n shudddup okay.
im not ur darling.
his nonsense again.
ntah ape hal dier msg aku pon tk tau.
lamer menghilang abe tetibe msg org.
abe msg mrapek pulak tu.
haiyo.
got people like dat oso.
aniwae, he's not my darling.
im not his darling too.
used to but not animore.
i've moved on.
sorry.
im all ALONE.
nobody seems to care.
evrybody is OUT.
left wid me, being all alone.
alone in de dark.
alone hiding at one corner of de room.
sumtyms i wonder.
do i really mean a lot to sum people?
am i really dat special sumone?
haf i really made an impact on their lives?
haf i ever been in de wrong bt dint noe my mistakes?
did i ever hurt anyone widout knowing?
all dox qns.
unanswered.
i wish i cud haf de answers.
but will i?
hais.
i HATE to stay so-fcuked-up.
i HATE stress.
i HATE to be put into sum kind of situations whereby
i need to choose either one answers.
i HATE to be compared.
i HATE not knowing de truth.
i HATE to find out smth i dont like frm anyone else.
i HATE people who dont seem to care.
i HATE myself,
for not grabbing my own happiness.
can?
im jus crazy.
period.
u sure u're happy wid me?
u sure u wont regret being wid me?
if u're not happy wid me, u can leave too.
cos i HATE hypocrites.
i HATE liars.
people come n go s dey wish.
im used to it alreadi.
nomatter how i dont want dat person to leave,
den person still leave me.
so sape tk biase kan mcm gitu.
dats why im used to it.
okay.
im crazy.
dont mind wad i've said lahh.
im jus too stressed.
always and forever lovin' you;
9:18 PM
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