My Ramblings
Friday, December 09, 2005
nt even a proper one.
argh!
i hated to have dat sort of feeling
whereby i cudnt do anything to help dat sumone
ease off de pain.
hais.
to you,
u noe hu u r.
im so sorry i cudnt help out much.
but jus to say a few lines.
i doubt dat few lines help u out to ease off de pain.
i doubt so.
im really sorry.
i felt really bad.
u're at de other side feeling veri sad,
n here i am,
dunoe wad i shud do.
i really dint noe wad to do.
okay. not dat i dunoe,
but i cant do anything over de fone.
i cant talk much.
u noe dat.
i dont talk dat much.
ape lagi kalau nk comfort org sey.
im not good at comforting people.
i let u noe ferst.
sumore it's over de fone.
it's like even more difficult lahh.
it's preferable if u talk abt dat sort of stuffs
wen im wid you.
so dat i can comfort u s much s i can.
like u've said,
u noe i wish to be by ur side giving u dat hug.
dat tight hug,
telling u dat i care.
care so much abt you.
hais.
how i wish i cud.
bt den perhaps i cudnt.
distance wise.
knowing u cried,
made me feel even worser.
cos i cudnt even do a single thing right
to make u feel better.
im sorry.
hais.
next tym,
wen u want to tell me sad stuffs,
please dont do it on de fone.
it's difficult 4 me.
do it wen we're together or smth.
or if u want,
i can go anywer n meet u jus to make
sure u have sumone to talk to and comfort u.
im orite wid dat.
u jus name me de place n time.
i'll go over.
bt depends on de time.
understand understood jelah eh.
haiyo.
i feel really bad lahh.
i feel like crying too.
how now?
i hope u're feeling better.
tho i noe u werent okay wen i asked de qn,
"r u okay?".
certain things cant be avoided kae.
n certain people,
majority lah,
dey jus cant lie to me.
sumhow or rather,
i'll soon find out.
so people out der,
dont ever try to lie to me.
cos i doubt u'll get thru it.
nobody likes to be de victim of lies.
i hated dat.
main purpose of blogging again was cos of u.
i switched on de comp back jus to post dix entry.
to let u noe dat i care for u.
i really do.
i wanted to really apologise 4 nt being much
of a help wen u needed one.
im really sorry.
hais.
always and forever lovin' you;
2:15 AM
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