My Ramblings

Combination of tues n wed's post.
Im back.
wish i wasnt tho.
hais.
though i was far away,
okayla. away from spore dat is,
memories of him still haunts me.
i dunoe why bt dey still do.
evrywer i go.
each time im left alone,
im always reminded of him.
dat was why i chose to sleep most of de time
der at kl.
hah.
trip was not too gud btw.
shops were mostly closed.
dats de reason why.
we only shopped at masjid india.
n de shops in de shopping centre.
so few bt nvm la.
shopped a few stuffs.
so many many bags la dat attracted my attention
but im supposed to keep my eyes to myself
and control de spendings.
heh!

stayed at Berjaya Time Square hotel.
de hotel damn big lars.
cept dat de service is damn poor.
i hated de service. okay, we hated de service catered.
surroundings were superb.
jus de services ALONE very poor.
harapkan 5 star hotel je.
mrapeks.
thanks to wak and mak fer de whole treat.
i think widout their treat, i wudnt be der la in de ferst place.
hehehhe!
thanks to mummy too fer de endless shoppings. haha.
enjoyed myself?
okaylah.
i shall say partly.
cos half of my brain was always on him.
yes, how stupid can i get rite?
i shud haf gotten myself a niice vacation bt i chose to think of him.
wth?!
argh!
dont bother la.

aniwaes,
some mat malaysia r good looking too okays.
jangan pandang rendah pade drg tauu.
hehehhehe.
like seriously la.
maybe not de locals local.
maybe dox mix blood ones.
get wad i mean?
tk paham sudah.
yeah, so i was kacau-ed a few times der.
guys definitely r guys.
hah.
even wen wid my aunty and uncle pon
drg bley kacau.
swit sane, swit sini.
showing signs of asking my number la.
waving la.
tanye name la.
haiyo.
but i jus dont bother.
hehehehe.

hmmm.
guess im moving on 4 sure.
though it's really difficult to do so.
im trying really really hard to cope up with life.
n im sure i can manage dem.
bless me.
hais.
"Life is so cruel widout YOU beside me."

hmmm...
sooooo.
updates.
guys AGAIN.
im sick and tired la.
Farhan wants me back.
he told me de other day but jus dat he needed sum
time more to stabilise himself ferst.
same excuse given.
how long do i haf to wait 4 u AGAIN?
years? hah.
i did wait 4 u de other time b4 being attached to zul.
but still der were no signs frm you.
u never did came.
only den recently.
hais.
people keep asking me to give him another chance.
should i?
i dunoe lah.
i really dunoe.
on the other hand,
A**** is treating me like sumone special.
like seriously la.
we're frens n de way he's been treating me
it's s though im his gf.
but i dunoe whether he is lah.
hais.
m i asking 4 so much?
i seriouly dunoe wad im feeling rite now la.
to feel good or not to feel gud?
i dunoe which is which?
i dunoe wad to feel.
i dunoe how to decide things nw.
evryone's/evrybody's asking 4 me back.
will it ever happen dat one fine day Zulkarnain ask me back?
hmmm.
dat shall be a question unanswered.
i wonder.

shessshhh!
dat "Unbreak my heart" video clip's really sad la.
heart-throb.
watching dat video clip really made me recall de times
we had together.
dox memories.
i shall cherish.
ders one part of de video wer he so-called bully her by
making her ticklish near her neck area.
dat was exactly wad u did to me jus to irritate me.
remember?
i wonder yet again.
hais.

i wonder who dat video clip is dedicated to.
hmmm.
prolly towards her.
yah, maybe.
i shud think so.
hais.

always and forever lovin' you;
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