My Ramblings

so many things have happened within dix few days.
im tired of blogging actualie.
feeling so lazy to even switch on de comp.
heh!
so since im bored nw,
and waiting to be called upon to get ready to go out,
i've decided to blog.
de comp has alreadi been switched on anyway.
not much fuss. hehe.

been spending time wid zul lately.
4 days straight wid him?
how great can dat be.
kalau bley nari pon nk jumpe jgk but time doesnt permits it.
mummy asking me out.
so aint got any choice here.

we dint really expect de relationship cud go till dix far.
kan you?
ehhehe.
expect de unexpected.
i still remember dat phrase.
me n sha used to use dat phrase quite often during our ferst sem.
both were troubled wid love life.
so yeah.

back to me n zul,
im glad dat de relationship is werking out pretty well.
thru thick n thin,
we haf been.
n im glad he's been wid me all along.
im sorry for misunderstanding things.
all dox misunderstandings dat had happened between us,
we're cleared de air.
n things r back to normal.
im really glad things r back to de way we want it to be.
thank god.
im feeling de way i shud feel.
at ferst i thot de relationship cudnt werk out cos of my past.
an unforgetable past i shall say.
i dont deny dat.
too difficult 4 me to forget.
tho how hard i've tried.
ders oways de saying,
it's easy to forgive bt it aint easy to forget.

but.
wid a sincere heart,
i dare to say,
im changing.
im changing cos of him.
you've changed me.
i change becos of YOU.
things r beginning to change since he came into my life.
tho it dint werk out too well in de beginning of de relationship.
for now, it's werking out pretty well.
i shant say it's perfect cos nth is perfect.
i shall say it's near perfect.
okay?
changing aint an easy thing.
especially to forget things dat was once so-precious.
it's only a matter of time.
time to heal de broken hart.
he was really by my side each time things happen.
for dat, i thank YOU.
u've proven to me how much i really mean to YOU.
i noe u've been trying REALLY HARD to heal me from my past.
i noe dat so much.
i really appreciate it.
it's like im giving YOU so much trouble.
stressing over my life.
r u really happy being wif me?
i shall ask YOU one of de days.

when i heard from people dat u're gonna stay long wif me
in de relationship,
i was really overjoyed.
hu noe dat u wud think dat way.
"cas kater dier kekal ngan u ar." haha.
"............ dier nk focus on korangnye relationship.
dier nk kekal ngan kau ah."
hahahahahaha.
to think, things can happen dat way.
dey were really hapie fer me.
especially her. kan? lols.
if she's happy fer me,
den im more than happie.
if ders such a word dat means more than hapie.
too bad, takde word gitu.
maybe contented?
perhaps.
if only u're staying near me.
hais.

people,
i tell u wad.
dont believe wadever others tell u.
okay.
u can if u trust dat person,
but dont trust evryone so much.
ders a limit to evry trust.
ders oways de werd 'betrayal' in de dictionary.
n u jolly-well find out whether ur frens r under dat category.
cos u'll nvr noe if he/she is telling u de truth or
jus trying to seek revenge by talking cork wif you
and den u believe dat person so much till...................
i shant say wad will happen next.
if dat happens den slamat la ehk.
jus be careful.
u'll nvr noe if u're de one diperbodoh-bodohkan/victim.
u'll nvr noe cos 'dat fren' is oways talking gud to u.
dont go ard telling other people de gud stuffs.
it may turn out bad instead.
do some research ferst okay.

from experience.
i dint really expect things between her n me to turn out dix way.
ferst things ferst, we're not lesbians.
hell NO.
takde chance ah aku lesbian.
geli je. yucks!
i still love drooling over guys okay.
kan syla? hehehe.
nvr haf i expect.
i thot i cud jus forgive u on wad had happened in de past
but den again, it really put me thru.
wad had happened in de past wasnt my fault.
i wasnt even involve in de story but u got me involve.
dat one nvm since we're threesome.
i was stupid enuf to support u and forgetting her.
n now,
u haf to lie to me YET AGAIN.
why?
i haf oways wondered why.
and i still am.
why do u haf to do dat to me?
was i still in de wrong?
m i to blame 4 things dat dint work out between us?
i dont wanna make things big.
nvr will i want to.
i shall keep quiet.
she noes it too.
tho it's jus a smally tiny-winy lie,
it still hurts okay.
having sumone whom i've regarded s a best fren.
used to.
i admit.
n having to find out she lied to me.
it may seems small to u la.
perkare kecik pe.
u dint think i'll find out rite?
hah!
so clever of u.
but.
i found out.
i'll still b wondering why u lied to me.
cudnt u jus say de truth?
does it hurt so much jus by telling de truth?
hais.
biarlah.
sukati kau la ehk.
ape kau nk, aku nk.

always and forever lovin' you;
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