My Ramblings

hmmmm.
dance was okay la today.
practise like we used to bt did it wid de fb.
did de formations half way.
continuing tml.
n damn it.
i thot february wasnt any near bt heck.
today's alreadi de 1st.
hahahahah.
i so blur like sotong. heh!
so ders chingay dix friday n saturday.
die sia.
so fast!
but no matter wad, we'll make it okay dancers.
hehehe!!

N so A**** fetched me up.
wid a willing hart. ikhlas.
according to him.
dari hari tu seh nk amek aku from sch
since i was going back home alone
n was alreadi late nite.
hah.
dulu time attach wid sumone else,
noone did offered to fetch me from sch after dance
tho it was alreadi late nite n i was all alone.
hmmmm.
he wasnt/isnt even my boyfren.
he's jus a fren.
a niice fren indeed.
he doesnt mind THE DISTANCE.
hah.
n i wonder why some people,
in fact to be specific my exs,
do mind de distance.
why arh?
i oways wonder tauu.
kalau ajak kluar,
evrytime widout fail i mux go home all alone.
at least da jln2 den balek siang sket la.
like send me home early n den u all can go home rite.
tk la lmbt sgt kan. early to catch de last train or smth?
cannot oso arh.
hmmmm.
hairan. wonder. left me thinking.
bt nehmind.
oh yea.
he send me home.
till de lobby dat is.
i refuse to let him send me till upstairs.
tk kene gaye je.
hehehe.
so better not.

i dunoe lah.
he's jus too niice 4 me.
im like used to bad stuffs.
not done by me
but done by my exs.
really.
like i want my bf to do niice things 4 me.
pamper me.
like guys shud do to their gfs la.
i shant elaborate.
i want all dox.
but wen i get dem,
like i feel awkward arh.
why arh?
maybe de right feelings is nt der yet.
i really dunoe la.

for now,
i shall say i dont want to commit myself into any relationships.
shall endure wid de goodness of being SINGLE.
guys? boys? gentlemen?
time to please me.
but i'll take time to respond.
see how arh.
mcm malas arh nk layan krg2 nie sume.

and to Md Farhan Bin Shaik Rashid,
do i really haf to wait 4 YOU?
must i? shud i? cud i? wud i?
hahahhahahahaha.
i dunoe.
it seems like i've been waiting 4 u to come
fer centuries bt u nvr did came.
like seriously.
u come n go s u like.
i hated dat.
u noe dat so well.
bt yet u're doing it again.
i dunoe if i can wait 4 u.
it's nt dat i dont want.
it's a matter of fact dat i dunoe if i can.
who noes if i die tml?
noone noes.
nobody cared.
feelings do fade away.
for some people, it's veri easy.
s easy s ABC. s easy s 123. s easy s one millisecond.
it disappears.
hah! hows dat?
i wonder wer de feelings haf gone to.
de drain probably.
hmmmm.
wadever it is, im confused.
evrytime like dix la.
wth?!
so shhhhhh!
and move away from me.

- de greatest sorrow is when im standing right in
front of YOU and YOU dont believe dat i STILL LOVE YOU.

touching aint it?
ever wonder dat?
now figure.

always and forever lovin' you;
1:06 AM

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