My Ramblings

tuesday's post.
i still dunoe wads in der fer me.
i dunoe why my life happens dix way.
i dunoe why people keep cumin n going s n wen dey like.
which was of course not into my thing.
i dont like okay wen u people do datt.

im confused over how guys r treating me since
the day i became single.
i really am.
i dont even noe wad my feelings ah.
i dunoe whose in my hart.
i dunoe whose in mind.
all i noe is the answer i dunoe.
hah!

YOU told me smth which i wasnt prepared to hear.
i thot it was ONLY A TEST.
like u've mentioned.
but in de end,
things turned out de other way round.
so it's not a test now but a true reality.
sumtimes i wonder which is which.
whether or not u're serious.
i just kept wondering.

i shall tell now why since last time i doubt in goin
back with my exs wen dey asked 4 a patch up.
one. der will be so many qns in my mind.
examples.
r u really changing 4 de better?
will u repeat wad u've done in de past?
will history repeat?
r u really serious dix time round?
etc.etc.etc.
ders too many qns unanswered.
dat was why i doubted in goin back.

so now, de decision lies wid you.
haf you really decided to take me back?
haf u really change?
why must i reconsider goin back wid you?
will u appreciate things?
all dox qns i've been thinkin since long ago.
hais.
if it's really true dat u're serious,
den i might consider.
if u're thinkin of breaking my heart again,
please dont.
i da cukup terluke.

wednesday's post.
went to sha's house to study.
but 3/4 of de time were spent on slacking.
can u believe it,
we're havin exams bt still haf de mood to slack.
hahahaha.
after eating we sat on de sofa.
talk n talk.
crap like hell.
nonsense people.
but it was niice tho.
i wish to do dat again after exams.
orite people?
hah!
tml's dcn paper.
gonna memorise things again.
bless me.
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