My Ramblings

guys.
utterly disappointed in dem.
why do u guys haf to treat us gerls dix way?
okay maybe der r sum gerls who wud treat guys
wishy-washyly.
but sum doesnt okay.
if u say u love her,
love her whole-heartedly.
dont fool ard wid her feelings.
i hate to hear wen gerls say their bfs left dem cos
of fcuking third parties.
enuf la ehk. jus enuf.
my ears can come out blood lahh.
experiencing dat is much worst i tell you.
so dont.
stop all dix nonsense.

to who ever you are,
dat shant b mentioned,
STOP HURTING my cousin okay!
from de start i dint like much of ur presence.
but i jus had to accept it.
if she likes you,
den i have to accept you.
same goes to de guys out der,
if u like/love me,
accept de people ard me.
dont even dare to ditch one.
dont even think of doin so i tell you.
back to my cousin.
whoever her boyfren is,
stop ALL the nonsense.
she did so much jus to please you.
SO MUCH!!!
much more den wad i gave my exs.
she won me. dats for sure.
bt i have my limits not giving all out.
understand me.
but she really did ALL dat for you.
and i mean ALL.
did all jus to satisfy you.
buy wad you want.
give evrything she has.
jus for de sake of you.
my god!
itu pun kau tk appreciate ke?
wad de hell r u thinking arh?
thinkin too far isit?
or isit ur brain is blocked by sum unnecessary stuffs.
i dunoe.
but wad i noe,
she LOVES you too much alreadi.
i dunoe how to explain to u lahh.

each time i meet her,
all she does is talk abt you,her bf dat is.
i aint got any choice bt to listen.
and at times,
i do get jealous.
she being attached, feeling all great wid sumone's company.
and here i am, single-ing.
wid noone to held by my side and to be proud of.
hais.
but it's okay.
i dun mind listening to her life stories.
i love her.
i love her much more den you do.
de difference is only,
i love her as my dearest cousin
and you love her as ur gf.
i can feel her PAIN.
thru her voice.
i feel like crying along.
but i noe i gotta hold on in order to comfort her.
but shessshhh!
im not good at comforting people sia. really.
dammnn.
i cant do much.
much rather talk to her bf.
bf kalau samer umur tkpe seh.
bley bebual. same thinkings.
tapi nie 2 yrs younger.
if i talk to you oso u wont understand my intention lah.
so, heck.

sudahla.
tak gune ckp psl kau lagi lah.
buang mase.
i'll see how i can help her out.
dont worry k gerl.
kalau dier mintak break jgk,
mati2 nak,
den jus give it to him okay.
you deserve a much better guy.
ders a lot out der.
so many to pick n choose from.
dont broad over things.
i noe it HURTS A LOT.
i noe.
but u got no choice.
one sided love isnt good.
loving sumone n not being love back
is not called love.
you'll b hurt more if it happens dat
he takes sumone else to b his.
dats de painful part.
so better bare de pain now rather than
to feel it layter.
okay?
chill kay.

guys...........
hais.
a headache.

always and forever lovin' you;
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