My Ramblings

Ferst and foremost, i'd like to say congrats to Nisa fer getting back wid her ex; hazwan. hahahha. cehhh! mrs hazwan please. hehehhe! hope krg happy kay gerl. second, congrats to sygku nina fer getting into republic poly taking sports n leisure management.. suke la org tu dpt masok poly kann. hahaha. btw, nina's my cousin yg terfavret skali! hah! third, congrats to silah fer getting into republic poly too. and she's taking de same course as my cousin. wad a small world. ahaha! ade jgk kwn ehk..! lahh, brape byk congrats aku nk ckp nie... lols.

howells, met my syg at town after jazz class jus now. and to dox people who dunno abt me attending jazz class, yahh, im in jazz class cos it's a compulsory thing in stagearts. my cca. jazz is interesting oso lah. wen u get a hang over it, it'll be much more easier. sersely. ask de rest. some even switch their mindsets from liking hip hop to jazz la. peter is a great instructor. serious. he's funny-ier den wad we thot he cud be. hah! i want do split!!! alahh, i so envy dox hu can do splits sia.. especially sherry. i so envy you okayy. u're so flexible. nvm. im gonna do splits in no time. i want okayy! practise and practise and im sure i'll b able to do splits some day. hope so. ehheh!

sayang was being his usual self. the gile him. hahahhaha. slalu gile la my syg. sersely. he can be so veri crazy most of e tym... and i still love him. okay syg. hehehe! takmo jealous k. reached home ard 1.05am. and i was alreadi scared sia to open de door. the teevee's volume can be heard. and i was sure my mum was still up. as expected, she's up and using de comp wid de teevee switched on. hahaha! but fortunately, she dint raise her voice at me. surprisingly la. really. i thot she wud jus nag and raise her voice at me but den i was wrong. she talked to me nicely like usual and dint even ask me why i reach home late. bestkan...! ntahla asl. and she even heated up de laksa gravy fer me la. knape la aleh2 cam gni? hahahaha. im smiling. yesss. and im so gonna get my PINK fone tml. yeayyy!!! heh! im like so happy,enlightened today. verii. wid mummy's good mood. wid syg's company. wid the crazy people entertaining me. hah! how i wish wad happen today will just continue for the rest of my lifetime. wudnt dat be great? happy always and i wont be troubled wid wadever means der is. shhessshhh!

see me happy? but de fact is im not. troubled wid things. NOT cos of my syg. dats out of de question. im more than happy being wid him. he'll nvr make me sad. doesnt mean wen ders stress, it's oways de bf fault okayy. hahahah. it's NOT btw. maybe not my problem la. it's her problem, i noe but she's sumone whom i love since young. we've been thru thick n thin together. happy and sad, both together. seen me cried, seen her cried. wad more do u ask? hah! who she is, i shant mention. but if u all noe thru hints den dat'll b an advantage to u people la. and ferst things ferst, im not a lesbian. and i have a boyfren. so dat marks it all. hah! she was held back by wad her ex did to her. cried more than ever. stupiid ex of hers. i simply hate him la. but i cant do much. she's still loving him. she doesnt want to listen to anybody. too soft-hearted. stubborn. oways pitied him after wad he had done to her. hurt her. evrything to her la. i dunoe wad else to say but i just hope dat things are jus clear cut. dont hurt her even further la gile. haiya. see-ing her cry, moodless, in sadness, makes my heart ache okayy. i can feel it. so just stop it wid ur stupiid games of love. nvr did u appreciate wad she has done fer u. u nvr will. i swear! argghh!!!
wadever la. i just want her to be happy. wad must i do? anyone?

always and forever lovin' you;
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