My Ramblings

Life has been sort of upside down fer me. i dunoe why but it's just the way it is for now.. moving on as it wants me to and going wif the flow.. patching up things slowly and improving... how i wish i could just turn back time, exactly on the right date and freeze the time forever..hah.. wishful thinking on my part, i noe...

i may just be crazy talking abt dis kinda shits on evry entry but heck, it's my blog. read as u may and leave if u want to.. hah..

after hearing wadeva u've said, i noe my hart was abit hurt by then.. u thot i oways wanted evrything wen each time we go out.. dey were jus mere remarks or comments made by me.. i only wanted to be wif u wenever we go out.. nothing else but u.. going out wif u was my happiness.. but seems like u're putting it in such a way dat im using all ur money and money will be needed alot each time we go out.. why? if it has to be dat way, it's jus money to buy food.. dats all wad.. i nvr ask u to buy so many things fer me.. as promised, and according to wadever u've said to me, my birthday will be on evry single month.. it's only between us.. im not hoping nor wishing 4 u to get me gifts evry month, just ample time to be wif me will be fine.. dat will do.. now i dont just get why money is the matter of all things.. hah..

and when each time ders not much money in ur wallet, i'll jus volunteer to sumhow get money and will ask u out... it happens quite a few times rite? but did i ever mention abt money issues to u? did i ever ask fer it back? did i ever or even said dat it's oways troublesome to go out wif u cos u dont haf any money? did i? no i definitely not... i'd still ask u out nomatter hw hard u push me away cos ders no money... i'd find money nomatter how hard/difficult it may be..

cos to me, the very most important thing is to be with you, only you... happiness will only be filled with/by you.
and the rest can wait.....

random:
i no longer feel like im being loved by someone very precious to my life sometimes. dats just how i feel like.. prolly dis is just due to PMS.. maybe things will be fine after the 7th day... we'll watch and see...

always and forever lovin' you;
12:55 AM

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