My Ramblings

Had a big fyte wif boyfren yesterday.
hais.
but we're okay now.
i dont wish to elaborate further.
for it will only bring hurt to me.

im really really tired of fyting.
be it a small matter or a huge one.
im sick of evryting.
sick of crying evry night.
sick of being hurt.
but i'll get over it sooner or later.
for i believe, being patient and tolerant,
will pay off at some points.
and for as long as i can tolerate,
i will.
i will give and take.
but im not sure myself,
for how long, how far my tolerance can reach.
really dont wish anyting to burst.
ending evryting just like dat.

i love to keep this relationship goin till the end.
for as long as i live.
i love my boyfren.
i really really love him.
since i met him,
i told myself,
he's gonna be the right one for me.
im too deeply in love with him.
and it's not easy for me to let him go. just like dat.
it's really hard.

from now on,
i promise myself,
to keep things all to myself.
be it any displeasures from him
or
im not contented wif wad he's doing.
or
with any of his attitudes.
im gonna do just dat.
cos im just so sick of voicing out
and getting hurt all over again.
being scolded all over.
it hurts alot.
sumore he's the one i LOVE MOST.

i've made my decision.
and i hope the relationship will work out better.
and stop all the fights.
it may never bring me any good,
it may never do me any better,
it may never make me happy,
it may bring me a lil bit of unhappiness,
but all i care now is just to make my boyfren happy.

i shall do all that.
and i mean it.
everything.

but just remember,
keep and bare in mind,
what i've said earlier in all my msges.

it's up to u now.
to change or not to.
my decision is made.

i hope i bring you happiness
in near future.
i hope i can still save the relationship
for as long as i live.

always and forever lovin' you;
9:16 PM

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