My Ramblings
Sunday, April 24, 2005
dix is supposed 2 be yest's entry.
realised something. i was practically making a big mistake abt him. u all may not noe hu he is but nevertheless,he's just making a fool out of me. i duno why la. we were supposed 2 meet yest. btw,it's not my bie okay. afta work dat is. waited 4 his msg on whether wer we shud meet n wad time. told him i finish work at ard 1pm like dat. he den msged me 2 say he cud onlie meet me at causeway point. WTF! it's so far away u noe. can u be f***ing reasonable a not??!! n de reason given 2 me was dat i wanted 2 meet. argh! but u were de one who pesters me abt meeting up dint u? n now,u're trying 2 say indirectly dat i was de reason being. haix. guess we wun be meeting if u continue 2 be like dix. i was so wrong. so wrong abt u. haix......
bie,im so sorry abt wad happen. really am. i duno wad i was thinking abt till i ask u abt dox stupid qns. prolly i was too engrossed over smth u myte not noe. okay. i think i shud 4get smth 2 go on. i noe i sound so stupid but den,HE gave me de say. im so sorry bie dat i brought dix upon u. but wad i noe,i do still luv u.
myself. im totally disappointed over myself. haiyo.i hate 2 be like a fool. maybe i shud tell u dat. u gave me so much hope. but yet u crushed it urself. how i hate it so much. prolly u're doin dix cox of one reason. me being ATTACHED. i noe dat. i noe dat. but cant friends meet?? cant dearest be used within frens?? now u tell me. whether im right or wrong. recall on ur past so u cud get wad i mean by all dox things. im so pissed off.
always and forever lovin' you;
9:57 AM
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