My Ramblings

Saturdae's post.
ajak-ed syla to join me go watch de suntec dance 2005 which
was held at suntec lahh.
bt she cudnt make it cos she's werking.
so ajak-ed fiza. she can make it. so told her 2 meet me at bdk int ard
5 plus like dat.
we met n so went straight 2 city hall.
supposedly to go wid de otha stage arters bt some cudnt make it.
nizam n de otha seniors were already der since 5pm. haha..
reached der ard 6pm. still not so many people yet.
it's at de fountain btw.
met asz wid her fwens.
plus nisa too. she brought her younger sis n fwen along.
so we sat near de stage der. bt not so near dat is.
n mats, so many many. lols.
fiza was like telling me, "tak sia2 aku ikot kau nad". haha.
meaning it's not a waste dat she follows me lahh.
dapat jugak cuci mater kann.. kan.. lols.
overall de dancers were really great.
dance competition were tough lah. s usual wadd.
de michael jackson wannabe was terrific tho he was like only 11 yrs old.
his moon walk triggered de crowd. hah!
such a talented boy.
den got dix young gerl. 6 yrs old.
wear so sexy lahh. she shoke her butt n all de guys go,"wooahh"..
haha.. guys s usual la. bt she's still small.
a talented gerl i must say.
de grp streezers which is from my sch, got in 2nd in position.
congrats yeah. u guys were great.
de winner,meaning de 1st in position wasnt an expected grp.
i mean to me n fiza dat is.
not in our list. n we dunoe why dey won. aahhahaha.
overall, fiza n me really enjoyed our day.
esp wen ders so many mats around us.
left mats,right mats, front mats, back mats.
wooohooottt! yeahh baby.. hahaha.
n de 2 mats behind us were so irritating la.
memekak bt niicee.. lols.
we left ard 9 plus like dat.
went straight 2 bedok int cos both already hungry.
bought de keropok n proceeded 2 de berth 66.
took de bus n went home lah.

i cudnt sleep yest.
n yes, i cried hearing "dat" song.
it was a sad song.
smth dat describes my past life with HIM.
yes, HIM s in farhan.
i cudnt stop crying.
read de sms-es HE used 2 send me.
n dat even made me cry.
cry like mad.
dayana shud noe de song.
n it was aizat's fav song last time.
i dunoe if de song still is his fav tho.
nvm abt dat.
i dun even noe wad 2 do yest
bt jz kept on weeping n weeping.
thinkin of HIM made me cry.
all dox sms-es.
i suddenly miss HIM.
i miss HIM badly.
i wish HE was der yest.
holding me close in HIS arms never letting me go.
ever.
if i cud get back 2 HIM, i'll b glad 2 do so.
yes, im willing 2 go back 2 HIM n start afresh if
he's willing 2 do so.
i want HIM back.
please.
haiz.
how i wish HE noes abt de blog n read all
my entries.
haiz.
Im willing 2 4get de past s long s u come back 2me.
can?
i just cant 4get HIM.
dats it.
be it hurting myself,
or people giving me advises,
or mom's words,
or someone else's love,
i still cant forget HIM.
i just cant.
he's jz still so dear to me.
tho der was de part wer he hurt me deep.
i still haf dat feeling of love fer him.
i dont tink all of u wud understand.
s a matter of fact,
i still luv him.
i cant deny dat.
tink wad may.
im still stubborn.
dats me.
dats why im still hurt here.

P.s: Say u love me again.

always and forever lovin' you;
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