My Ramblings

yest's post.
adek: kak, pak long dah meninggal.

me: huh? kau jgn maen2 sey. pak long mane pulak nie?

adek: pak long kite la. nina nye bpk. mak long nye husband.

me: eh, apasal sey? ape da jadi.

adek: ntahlah. adek pon tk tau. nie mama tgh tanye.
kau bley balek siang tak?

me: ah. nanti aku try tgk arh bley ke tak.

-hangs fone-

i tell you. i was so shocked okae. i reached sch alreadi.
tgh bobal ngn syla sey. happyhappy gitu.
skali ders a call from home.
ape tk teperanjat sey.
de news really SHOCKED me.
like serious.
arwah pak long dint suffer from any illness or wadsoever.
dunoe la if he's keeping from us anything.
but s far s i noe, he's s healthy s he can be.
n his death really shocked a lot of people.
he's just 50. n had to leave us.
guess we haf to accept it.
god loves him more den we do.
i was sad 4 nina.
she's taking her o levels sia.
i mean she was having paper wen it all happend.
her teachers came her house n brought her back to sch to
take her ss paper. haiz.
life is really short. so treasure it okae.
widout us noeing, sumone we really love,
left us just like dat widout any signs of leaving.
eh. bt my uncle got call my kakak sdare hu's studying at
australia a few times n asking her to come back faster.
dats one of de signs but yet she cudnt meet her father
4 de last time.
she reached spore ard 5pm like dat.
pak ngah reached at abt 1am today.
evryone is greaving for now.
even me.
i cudnt control myself yest.
even wen inside de mrt.
lucky ders not many people.
thinkin dat pak long has left us,
dats so difficult to accept lar.
it's so sudden.
came back home. i reached sch alreadi like mentioned.
but mummy asked me to go home.
den off went to mak long's house.
so saddening.
haiz. i dont wish to talk abt dat already la.

stress out sey.
mane nk fikirkan skola. psl family. psl relationships.
lamer2 otak aku nie meletup aku rase.
syla noe me best. she noes evryting.
kan syla? haha.
kau la tmpt aku mengadu skrg.
aku da tkde sesape lagi.
noone else to share de pain.
aku harap kau dont mind.

sch is sucha drag.
thinkin abt sch make me wanna sleep.
ntah. wers all de excitement i used to haf?
sejak bile aku jadi malas camnie sey?
da malas nk g skola.
malas nk g keje dulu.
malas. sume malas. haiz.
stress.stress.stress.
wen can i lead a carefree life?
when?
free from problems.
free from evrything.
let me b happy 4 once can?
let me b happy b4 i leave dix world can?.
at least 4 once.
nak jgk aku happy sey.
nk jgk rase camne happy tu nye rase.
ahahaha.

eeh.. okaelah.
i haf to go n siap.
gotta go to sch alreadi lars.

always and forever lovin' you;
10:16 AM

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