My Ramblings

evrything jus sucks la okay. if only life could jus be plain easy pretty simple. just you and me. filled up the emptiness wif happiness instead. exchange the problems wif more good news instead. change the sadness/hurt into joy and laughter.
get back with wad we used to be, used to do, used to haf. wouldnt dat be just great? life will be so peaceful then... i wonder when....

evrything i do seems to be an eyesore to you. even my weakness was picked at. i dunoe whether it's jus me or ders smth wrong with the worlds' blaming system. why do i oways get to be blamed evrytime? my good deeds not good enough? not enough to accumulate and get my happiness in return? hais.

my good deeds, my sacrifices, my tolerance, evryting werent noticed. or isit not good enuf for u? evryting u asked me to do, i do. evry single little tings. i agreed upon seeing u reacting pretty happy each time i abide to ur rules.. demands, demands and more demands. i abide. i followed. i played along. ders only one reason to it. cos i love you so much to even cared more abt the hurt dats killing me inside..

each time i look/ponder/came across upon our pictures, i'll jus smile; flashing back. moved to tears sometimes. cos i oways wonder, cant life be as good as when we ferst met? cant we jus haf a world of our own? cant we jus haf fun, just the two of us?

random:

i miss walking with you all the way to the 65 bus stop at wheelock and camwhored like crazy. Automated the camera.
i miss the very ferst hug i got from you. under the shelter on the 26th's morning.
i miss the happiness dat has been lagging behind between us.

to the problems that have been pulling us somewhat or rather, i just wish dey'll disappear and never come back.

always and forever lovin' you;
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